Hi everyone...in 8 minutes time its midnight so I will put everything in write everything in about today and not use the term yesterday...ok anyway today went to school for bmgt lecture and it was the last lecture for the whole sem...again it was for revision...before tapping my card, cara and xian kai(ok I will call him kai cause don't know which xian he wants me to write:hiang or xian)...haha...anyway then suddenly I guess cara wanted to call me or play a trick of me or something then suddenly I jumped or you could say jerked with shock...then when I looked behind cara face was a bit shocked too...it was damn funny then me,cara and kai all laughed...it was damn hilarious...haha...then kai told me not to worry cause he won't tell my secret to any one...haha...then I tap my card and went in...the lecture ended at 12.30pm plus...
At the bus stop saw haiza and hassanah...then when I was looking down pondering over something suddenly pei jiao said bye to me,so I thought her bus said so I said bye to her...when I looked up it was my bus...haha...so i was in a state of shcok that I forget To say my goodbyes to haiza and hassanah...then left to board the bus...so later send haiza a goodbye sms which was a little weird...cause who sends a sms like that right?haha...so sucky man,the bus I took was non air-conditioned...so hot man,somemore wearing black...when I went to sit at the last sit the lady saw in the middle who was letting her grandchild lie down...so I moved in at the side sit..when I moved in I think I hitted her in the face with my bag strap...opps...haha...cause she swipe her upper lip so I guess I hitted her...haha...so went home and ate something watch a show and a movie called "sisterhood of travelling pants"...I think thats what's its called...and read the harry potter book adn sleep and then ate dinner then use my laptop and stuffs...I know I like pig like that hor?haha...
Anyway I just now just receive an comment from andril and read it...it did suddenly made me realise that everyone has changed so much in these 7-8 months and how much I miss my arca(big sister)...for that matter miss all my close friends(huai qiong,pei jie,baradhi,eunice,wendy,etc.)...it just saddens me that time really passes and I have now so little chances to talk to them face to face...secondary school life,teachers,help for 'O's,those evening in the library for self-study,rushing to complete my D&T project,doing TYS questions,most importantly friends...all I missed...but I am happy as some of them are happy in what they are doing...I guess it because they understand me more?and in an so called new environment,I have not really open up to th epeople around me,so I sometimes feel lonely as if I am alone in the world...I am really sorry to those people arund me...it's makes me sad that I can't have a more louder personality,so I have more friends...I guess its all my fault for not taking the frst step in meeting people...so I think I should slap myself in the face...I guess some parts of me wants to change but cannot...actually didn't really hate or dislike anyone so badly in secondary school..but now...haiz...to tell you the truth,if it does not sounds nice but I feel sick standing on the same ground as her...it makes me me really tired too,putting on an act everytime she is around...I know or feels she doesn't like me too,cause whenever she ask us things I would just don't say anything and p* will just answer and then will not ask about my opinion...it is just like I am invisible and my words just don't matter...you know I feel to an extend that she just uses me when she doesn't have friends...for example today,she ask us whether can take a day off and teach her infa which when p* answered then she so called self-claimed that p* is going to help and then didn't ask me already...is not that I want her attention,but if you want ask both of us at least have the courtesy for the other to reply too right?don't act and pretend to ask me then ignore what's happen...I can't believe I am going to say this but poly life is just making me very miserable...anyway I guess all this have been brought upon myself and I am not going to blame any for my doings...haiz...but how do you really know someone really well in like just 4 months and change a new class every semester..its really hard man...and have to meet new people all over again...I guess its sucks...anyway exams are coming,don't have time to think of these stuffs...I hope...anyway gtg now...need to sleep liao...see ya folks...bye...take care...love and miss ya... =(
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[WHO? Juin Wen aka. Vabien]
[BIRTHDATE: 11 July]
[CHARACTER: Crazy, Emo, Weird, Kind, Fun Loving, Wacky, etc.]
[FAVOURITES: Eating & Drinking, Cooking, Chatting, Chilling Out with Cliques, Movies and Drama Serials, Reading, Music, Learn New Stuffs, Trying Out Adventurous and Exciting Stuffs...]
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