[WHO? Juin Wen aka. Vabien]
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Hey...first of all I want is say something...I AM DECOMPOSING AT HOME!!!so bored man nothing to do sia...and the best thing is that it is only the 3rd day of the hols only...what I am going to do for the rest of the 7 weeks...I don't believe I am saying this but...I feel so bored of watching tv and using my laptop man...what else is there to do?it is impossible to go out everyday as it cost money and will be broke before the hols are over...maybe the hols are just not as great as I thought...haha...come to think of it,all of my holidays plans all require capital...surf the net you might say...been there,done that...almost all the sites I know,I have visited but it's like BORING...so what's next?argh!!!I guess I am this(put your thumb and index finger close together) close to becoming mad...anyway ok today didn't do much at home but sleep,read,eat and watched a taiwanese drama on youtube...I think I going to grow fat and die if this goes on...haha...anyway going to write a short one today...ok maybe let me of 10 things I missed about secondary school...cause I am damn free and sometimes cannot sleep the think about the past...haha...gtg now... see ya guys soon...take care.. =)
Top 10 things I missed in Secondary School (not in any order):
1)Go "exploring" in dark places,
2)Eating at Mac after school,
3)Playing catching in Ginza Plaza,
4)Staying back after school to do D&T artefact,
5)Going to $1 shop to buy sweets then sit around and chat,
6)Hanging around the canteen after eating to chat and make jokes,
7)Doing 'zhuo ji'(chinese journal)???even though I dread it then,
8)Having the self-study in the library after prelims till the evening,
9)Buying the disgusting but strangely ok-tasting canteen food and if it is new,comment on how gross it taste and
10)Waiting for each other to take the bus home!!!
Just an another day...
Thursday, August 30, 2007 12:17 PM
Long time no blog...7th Lunar Month...
Tuesday, August 28, 2007 2:35 PM
Hi everyone...the hols have officially STARTED!!!haha...long time never blog le...cause been staying at home,really bored,nothing to do sia...ok lets start on sunday cause the rest of the days were lame...in the morning,went to swim at buona vista swimming pool which was a no,no,no..cause as children we were told not to go swimming during the 7th lunar month as it is said that people who drowned in water will come to seek revenge for example pulling one's leg to they can't swim and eventually drowned...how eerie right?but talking about swimming I have not swam for more than 4 years already,after my swimming lessons in my primary school days...I guess you get conscious of your body as you grow older right?so i showed my fats to everyone...haha...then when to vivo to eat lunch and picked up a shirt from there and went to the supermart to do a little shopping...then went home...
In the evening,went to grandma's house to eat dinner and later was the prayer session for the hungry spirits...I always find it very amusing sitting in the hall as there would always be many different conservations happening at the same time!and you can eavesdrop on them...and for your information I don't like doing it but happens to overheard...haha...ok moving on,as a kid there were these egg cakes which I looked forward to eat after the 7th month prayer but as years passed the food has reduced I know it is troublesome and grandma is getting old,so I don't blame her at all...then after that headed home...my family did our little prayer at the open space near my block to the spirits...then went back home...I guess that about to wrap up my day...slept at 2 plus...I guess what I woke up at 2 plus coming to three this afternoon...which I was damn surprised it's been a while since I slept for 12 hours and more...I guess that shows how sleep-deprived I am...haha...then woke up and watched "Wei Xiao Pasta" on youtube...haha...really nice...love Zhang Dong Liang man,his songs really sad and emo...haha...my favourite...haha...then after that watch some TV then ate dinner...after that about 8 saw "Hey Gorgeous!"...it was np,the people not so bad at least at represent np...haha...ok I guess thats about end my day...
I was thinking my blog a bit boring or for that matter very boring as it always about me...haha...so I decided to make my blog at little information site on chinese festivals...so as it is the 7th lunar month so I decide to start with the origin and traditions...
The Origin (Buddhist Version): Once upon a time, there was this filial son who was also a monk called Mu Lian. There was once he used his third eye to see how was his late-mother doing in the other world and saw her in hell fighting with other spirits over food. So he decided to "send" her a bowl of grains but who knew, as she scooped the grains with her hands to eat it turned in burning charcoals. When Mu Lian saw this situation we was overcome with saddens,as her son he could not bear to see his mother suffer like this and not do anything. The next day,he approach his teacher to seek a solution. So his teacher said to make offerings to the hungry and wandering spirits on the 1st and the 15th of the seventh lunar month.He did as told and when he used his third eye to look into hell again,he saw his mother eating comfortably.Thus,in order to not let their parents (dead or alive) suffer,the chinese would give offerings to the wandering and hungry spirits during the seventh month so that the spirits will not disturb them or their family.(of course there are many version to this story but this is mine...)
The Origin (Taoism Version): In the group of deities the taoists worshipped,there are 3 officials namely the heaven official,earth official and the water official are in charge of the earth realm affairs(if I am not wrong...haha...)...the earth official birthday falls on the 15th of the seventh lunar month...for some reason (which I am unsure) he propose an petition to the Jade Emperor to request that all spirits from hell to be released on the 7th month in the lunar calender...So the jade Emperor agree to his request,so every year on the 7th lunar month all spirits from hell would to release to the earth realm to have a holiday and enjoy food and money offerings given by the living... So at times in some prayer tents the three officials are being worshipped for their compassion...
Traditions: For the Buddhists,food,salvation prayers and joss sticks will be given to the spirits. While the taoists provide paper money,joss sticks,food and wine and prayers to appease the spirits. The prayers are to appease,pardon the sins of the spirits and pray for a better rebirth.
Not many people know that it is the Ksitigarbha Buddha who is the one who open the gates of hell on the 1st of the seventh lunar month and it is not necessary always at 12am the seventh month starts. I think he is my hero man,he has a motto that states that "If Hell is not empty,I will not attain Buddhahood"...meaning that if hell is not empty as it is a place for people who conduct misdeeds,he will not rise to heaven to attain buddhahood...as hell is the lowest in the ten dharma realms, the vow implies that he will be the last one to become Buddha amongst all. very 'wei da' right? This is the picture of him...
Source: http://web.singnet.com.sg/~alankhoo/Ksitigarbha.htm
Ok now let me introduce the types of offerings the taoists gives to the spirits...
First will be clothes. All the items in the picture represent clothes,shoes,necessities of life as learned in macro(or should I say death...haha...)and cloths that are used to make clothes with. Except the white stacks of paper in the middle are visa...spirits are are like the living they will like to travel to other places so they need visas like these to pass through 'customs'...and the bottom two types of joss papers have mantras and spells written on it as to calm the rage of the spirits coming to collect the items and stuffs...and to help them to atone for their sins?(I think,not sure for the rectangular piece) and the circular paper also representing rounding up the hatred, smoothing to the emotions of the souls...as the spirits release from hell are not going to be exactly nice,imagine being lock up for 11 months and being tortured for the misdeeds you have committed when you are alive,you are not exactly going to be happy...
Each piece of paper represent a piece of cloth as many spirits will be coming to collect the offerings so you will not know what sizes are they(XS,S,M,L,XL...)...so I guess it is better to give them the raw materials and let them bring it to the tailor's...remember,hell is just like earth but it is for the dead...my mother tells me only the Cantonese folds these type of paper...
(it comes in 6 different colours:pink,white,orange,purple,yellow and green...take your pick...)
Second,comes the currency and money used...the top row are gold and silver second would be...the second row are the famous 999.9 gold and silver bars and the long strip of white paper are small changes for the spirits...as not always they carry large amount of money...sometimes,they are thrown during funerals to call the spirits back or to come to enjoy the feast liad out...I feel like saying some econs her but forget liao after the exams...the last row are paper money...take a look on the number of zero on them...200 million and 100 billions(I better don't bother reading the zeros,it is impossible)???won't that cause inflation if everyone have so much money?as a result hurting consumers' spending...
More money,money,money...I guess it is a must to have the picture of the king of hades on every notes like our yusof isshark...haha...some notes are decorated with junks,deities,birds and children...on the other side will be the picture of the bank of hell...
You see I told you,those number of zeros will cause inflation...it looks really like our real money...as a child I was always amazed with these...it look so real...I remember Wendy once make a joke about these say that we could trick taxi drivers and not paying them and replacing them with these(as I am sure you heard about those stories that a lady will ask to be drive to a graveyard then later disappearing then when the taxi driver checked,the notes will be the hell bank notes)...haha...but miss tay (my sec 2 form teacher) said the spirit can disappear but we can't...haha...so in the end we will get caught...haha...(a close up)
Here's a box of coins and paper that are folded in the shape of gold and sliver ingots...All these clothes and money are burned in the end,as it is believe to be a transportation to the other world...I guess you can take it like FedEx...haha...but whether they get it or not,I guess we will never know...
And lastly,we have reach the food section...here are joss sticks which are a must in every prayer...and candles to lead the spirits to the feast and offerings prepare for them...and there are prayer cookies,tea leaves and a prosperity cake as it is believe that after praying the cake will bring wealth to the family...some people do offer rice,meat,fish,fruits and wine...what a spread right?haha...as I have a small family thus there is not much of a elaborate spread...some people place it at the door so the spirits do not come in the house and disturb the residents...some people refrain from eating the food as after the spirits have 'consumed' it,it is considered to have a lot of yin energy and may cause bad luck and misfortune...but some believe they will be bless by their ancestors or by the spirits...many have argued that the spirits do not really eat the food but by smelling it and as a result the food will lose its flavour...but it is not gonna be drastic...but nobody is 100% sure...
Ok I guess that about wraps up everything...hope now you know more about the chinese culture...feel free to ask me or feel free to correct me if I am wrong in any place...or comment on how I did...haha...if not just read it...haha...if I am not wrong it is the longest entry I've written since I started this blog till now...haha....gtg now...see ya...take care,everyone...bye... =)
In the evening,went to grandma's house to eat dinner and later was the prayer session for the hungry spirits...I always find it very amusing sitting in the hall as there would always be many different conservations happening at the same time!and you can eavesdrop on them...and for your information I don't like doing it but happens to overheard...haha...ok moving on,as a kid there were these egg cakes which I looked forward to eat after the 7th month prayer but as years passed the food has reduced I know it is troublesome and grandma is getting old,so I don't blame her at all...then after that headed home...my family did our little prayer at the open space near my block to the spirits...then went back home...I guess that about to wrap up my day...slept at 2 plus...I guess what I woke up at 2 plus coming to three this afternoon...which I was damn surprised it's been a while since I slept for 12 hours and more...I guess that shows how sleep-deprived I am...haha...then woke up and watched "Wei Xiao Pasta" on youtube...haha...really nice...love Zhang Dong Liang man,his songs really sad and emo...haha...my favourite...haha...then after that watch some TV then ate dinner...after that about 8 saw "Hey Gorgeous!"...it was np,the people not so bad at least at represent np...haha...ok I guess thats about end my day...
I was thinking my blog a bit boring or for that matter very boring as it always about me...haha...so I decided to make my blog at little information site on chinese festivals...so as it is the 7th lunar month so I decide to start with the origin and traditions...
The Origin (Buddhist Version): Once upon a time, there was this filial son who was also a monk called Mu Lian. There was once he used his third eye to see how was his late-mother doing in the other world and saw her in hell fighting with other spirits over food. So he decided to "send" her a bowl of grains but who knew, as she scooped the grains with her hands to eat it turned in burning charcoals. When Mu Lian saw this situation we was overcome with saddens,as her son he could not bear to see his mother suffer like this and not do anything. The next day,he approach his teacher to seek a solution. So his teacher said to make offerings to the hungry and wandering spirits on the 1st and the 15th of the seventh lunar month.He did as told and when he used his third eye to look into hell again,he saw his mother eating comfortably.Thus,in order to not let their parents (dead or alive) suffer,the chinese would give offerings to the wandering and hungry spirits during the seventh month so that the spirits will not disturb them or their family.(of course there are many version to this story but this is mine...)
The Origin (Taoism Version): In the group of deities the taoists worshipped,there are 3 officials namely the heaven official,earth official and the water official are in charge of the earth realm affairs(if I am not wrong...haha...)...the earth official birthday falls on the 15th of the seventh lunar month...for some reason (which I am unsure) he propose an petition to the Jade Emperor to request that all spirits from hell to be released on the 7th month in the lunar calender...So the jade Emperor agree to his request,so every year on the 7th lunar month all spirits from hell would to release to the earth realm to have a holiday and enjoy food and money offerings given by the living... So at times in some prayer tents the three officials are being worshipped for their compassion...
Traditions: For the Buddhists,food,salvation prayers and joss sticks will be given to the spirits. While the taoists provide paper money,joss sticks,food and wine and prayers to appease the spirits. The prayers are to appease,pardon the sins of the spirits and pray for a better rebirth.
Not many people know that it is the Ksitigarbha Buddha who is the one who open the gates of hell on the 1st of the seventh lunar month and it is not necessary always at 12am the seventh month starts. I think he is my hero man,he has a motto that states that "If Hell is not empty,I will not attain Buddhahood"...meaning that if hell is not empty as it is a place for people who conduct misdeeds,he will not rise to heaven to attain buddhahood...as hell is the lowest in the ten dharma realms, the vow implies that he will be the last one to become Buddha amongst all. very 'wei da' right? This is the picture of him...
Source: http://web.singnet.com.sg/~alankhoo/Ksitigarbha.htm
Ok now let me introduce the types of offerings the taoists gives to the spirits...
First will be clothes. All the items in the picture represent clothes,shoes,necessities of life as learned in macro(or should I say death...haha...)and cloths that are used to make clothes with. Except the white stacks of paper in the middle are visa...spirits are are like the living they will like to travel to other places so they need visas like these to pass through 'customs'...and the bottom two types of joss papers have mantras and spells written on it as to calm the rage of the spirits coming to collect the items and stuffs...and to help them to atone for their sins?(I think,not sure for the rectangular piece) and the circular paper also representing rounding up the hatred, smoothing to the emotions of the souls...as the spirits release from hell are not going to be exactly nice,imagine being lock up for 11 months and being tortured for the misdeeds you have committed when you are alive,you are not exactly going to be happy...
Each piece of paper represent a piece of cloth as many spirits will be coming to collect the offerings so you will not know what sizes are they(XS,S,M,L,XL...)...so I guess it is better to give them the raw materials and let them bring it to the tailor's...remember,hell is just like earth but it is for the dead...my mother tells me only the Cantonese folds these type of paper...
(it comes in 6 different colours:pink,white,orange,purple,yellow and green...take your pick...)
Second,comes the currency and money used...the top row are gold and silver second would be...the second row are the famous 999.9 gold and silver bars and the long strip of white paper are small changes for the spirits...as not always they carry large amount of money...sometimes,they are thrown during funerals to call the spirits back or to come to enjoy the feast liad out...I feel like saying some econs her but forget liao after the exams...the last row are paper money...take a look on the number of zero on them...200 million and 100 billions(I better don't bother reading the zeros,it is impossible)???won't that cause inflation if everyone have so much money?as a result hurting consumers' spending...
More money,money,money...I guess it is a must to have the picture of the king of hades on every notes like our yusof isshark...haha...some notes are decorated with junks,deities,birds and children...on the other side will be the picture of the bank of hell...
You see I told you,those number of zeros will cause inflation...it looks really like our real money...as a child I was always amazed with these...it look so real...I remember Wendy once make a joke about these say that we could trick taxi drivers and not paying them and replacing them with these(as I am sure you heard about those stories that a lady will ask to be drive to a graveyard then later disappearing then when the taxi driver checked,the notes will be the hell bank notes)...haha...but miss tay (my sec 2 form teacher) said the spirit can disappear but we can't...haha...so in the end we will get caught...haha...(a close up)
Here's a box of coins and paper that are folded in the shape of gold and sliver ingots...All these clothes and money are burned in the end,as it is believe to be a transportation to the other world...I guess you can take it like FedEx...haha...but whether they get it or not,I guess we will never know...
And lastly,we have reach the food section...here are joss sticks which are a must in every prayer...and candles to lead the spirits to the feast and offerings prepare for them...and there are prayer cookies,tea leaves and a prosperity cake as it is believe that after praying the cake will bring wealth to the family...some people do offer rice,meat,fish,fruits and wine...what a spread right?haha...as I have a small family thus there is not much of a elaborate spread...some people place it at the door so the spirits do not come in the house and disturb the residents...some people refrain from eating the food as after the spirits have 'consumed' it,it is considered to have a lot of yin energy and may cause bad luck and misfortune...but some believe they will be bless by their ancestors or by the spirits...many have argued that the spirits do not really eat the food but by smelling it and as a result the food will lose its flavour...but it is not gonna be drastic...but nobody is 100% sure...
Ok I guess that about wraps up everything...hope now you know more about the chinese culture...feel free to ask me or feel free to correct me if I am wrong in any place...or comment on how I did...haha...if not just read it...haha...if I am not wrong it is the longest entry I've written since I started this blog till now...haha....gtg now...see ya...take care,everyone...bye... =)
Hurray!!!Let's Celebrate...
Friday, August 24, 2007 2:37 PM
Yoyo...so happy today...all the exams are over and the holidays are here...bring out the cake,drinks,balloons and food and CELEBRATE!!!haha...anyway ok about today infa exam...Oh No!!!my balance sheet cannot balance...in the end,I found out the depreciation needs to be divided by the by the number of months..so shitty man...then I cocked-eye,the cash at bank was a overdraft!!!and I hurried so didn't see clearly...now knowing it I feel like killing myself...I didn't know mrs chiu so evil and used the 'cash at bank on the credit side' trick to trick us(or tried to tricked)...haha...that's why I balance here and there also cannot balance...my difference was like $70000++...and rush then forget one WHOLE adjustment but found out just in time...haha...so never rush through your work...haiz...I guess what is done,can't be undone right?haha...ok lets PARTY!!!haha...
Ok,lets talk about a really hilarious incident that happened...as we entered the room we wanted to placed our bags and go to our seats...so was waiting for tze wen to take out her things then put my bag but ht couldn't wait so she was like 'excuse me'...then me,hansanah,meng kui and haiza all look at her with like what's-your-problem look(ok I think it is only me)...then I was looking as my 'best' friend,haiza to react,when she looked up,our eyes met and started laughing...it was really funny but hasanah and meng kui don't seem to understand our 'secret code'...haha...then looked at hasanah and also laughed and she laughed too...anyway ht take out things,don't take out earlier or faster...when tze wen finished I put my things beside ht ones and go to my table...she still not yet finish...haha...then took the exams...
After the exam,met up with eunice and exchange books for next sem...I don't even know need to repeat then exchange like by exchanging the boooks,jinx it man...then need to repeat...choi,touch wood hope it doesn't happen...but fear builds inside me while waiting for the results...then took the bus with eunice,damn many people at the bus stop man...then saw dorothy with our exam paper,we were shocked asked her she in acc,actually she was holding it for a friend...haha...then while taking boarding the bus saw my 'best' friend,hasanah and meng kui...was talking to eunice so didn't notice them until they were in front of me...haha...sorry,sorry...chat to eunice a while next sem's modules and stuffs...then board the bus then alighted at the mrt...ran a few errands for mum...when went to the shop to buy things,the lady and her husband were eating,feel so bad to disturb them...then showed a picture to her whether she sold it...but she said she saw it before but she thinks it had stop production already...was a little embarrassed man...haha...(don't think dirty )haha...she asked me whether where I got the picture and I said the internet and she was amazed...I guess in this technological savvy world nothing is impossble already...haha...I think I am the only person who did it...haha...but bought something similiar to it...then after buying the things,as I bought a lot I asked her whether can put in a bigger plastic bag that I brought then she said no problem...damn malu lor...next time don't back liao...haha...kidding...
Anyway,got so much plans for the holidays...can't wait to carry it out...haha...gtg now...a litle tired...ooo btw on sunda,going grandma's house for the 7th lunar month prayer...can't wait to meet my cousins soon...haha...mmm...talking about the 7th lunar month maybe I should write an entry on it another...since now I am free as its the holidays and not much to do...haha...anyway,I think I better log into my friendster account for a while,cause 2 weeks never touch it already...haha...ok bye for now...will blog soon...take care...ciao... =)
Ok,lets talk about a really hilarious incident that happened...as we entered the room we wanted to placed our bags and go to our seats...so was waiting for tze wen to take out her things then put my bag but ht couldn't wait so she was like 'excuse me'...then me,hansanah,meng kui and haiza all look at her with like what's-your-problem look(ok I think it is only me)...then I was looking as my 'best' friend,haiza to react,when she looked up,our eyes met and started laughing...it was really funny but hasanah and meng kui don't seem to understand our 'secret code'...haha...then looked at hasanah and also laughed and she laughed too...anyway ht take out things,don't take out earlier or faster...when tze wen finished I put my things beside ht ones and go to my table...she still not yet finish...haha...then took the exams...
After the exam,met up with eunice and exchange books for next sem...I don't even know need to repeat then exchange like by exchanging the boooks,jinx it man...then need to repeat...choi,touch wood hope it doesn't happen...but fear builds inside me while waiting for the results...then took the bus with eunice,damn many people at the bus stop man...then saw dorothy with our exam paper,we were shocked asked her she in acc,actually she was holding it for a friend...haha...then while taking boarding the bus saw my 'best' friend,hasanah and meng kui...was talking to eunice so didn't notice them until they were in front of me...haha...sorry,sorry...chat to eunice a while next sem's modules and stuffs...then board the bus then alighted at the mrt...ran a few errands for mum...when went to the shop to buy things,the lady and her husband were eating,feel so bad to disturb them...then showed a picture to her whether she sold it...but she said she saw it before but she thinks it had stop production already...was a little embarrassed man...haha...(don't think dirty )haha...she asked me whether where I got the picture and I said the internet and she was amazed...I guess in this technological savvy world nothing is impossble already...haha...I think I am the only person who did it...haha...but bought something similiar to it...then after buying the things,as I bought a lot I asked her whether can put in a bigger plastic bag that I brought then she said no problem...damn malu lor...next time don't back liao...haha...kidding...
Anyway,got so much plans for the holidays...can't wait to carry it out...haha...gtg now...a litle tired...ooo btw on sunda,going grandma's house for the 7th lunar month prayer...can't wait to meet my cousins soon...haha...mmm...talking about the 7th lunar month maybe I should write an entry on it another...since now I am free as its the holidays and not much to do...haha...anyway,I think I better log into my friendster account for a while,cause 2 weeks never touch it already...haha...ok bye for now...will blog soon...take care...ciao... =)
Last Paper Tomorrow Before I am Free!!!
Thursday, August 23, 2007 4:52 AM
Hey...at last tomorrow is the last paper,infa...can't wait before it is done then can be done already...anyway yesterday was studying,watch a little tv and then slept...which was like 4am...haha...actually it affects my sleeping pattern man,it take one day to mess up everything,after macro exam came back to sleep then in the night couldn't sleep,in the end slept at 4am...so it carried onto yesterday...hope I don't wake up late tomorrow...haha...*yawn*...ok yesterday something freaky really happen,was reading the SPI(Singapore Paranormal Investigators) site about chinese spirits weddings and the articles in the 7th Lunar month then sudden my mum was asking me something so I pause what I was doing and talk to her for a mintue...when I turned back to my laptop's screen something strange happened..suddenly the pointer of my mouse was moving by ITSELF!it was not a big motion but it was moving left to right and back again within a distance of 1cm or less for about 5 seconds...which was really weird...I was thinking what could have caused it,as nobody was near my computer...in that 5 seconds I was looking from my wireless mouse to my touchpad...nothing,and I mean nothing was moving,ok maybe I can't see the the movement of the touchpad but it was weird and I was ensur ing my hands was away from the table not even touching it...it just weird...given it was the 7th lunar month and spirits from the underworld roam the earth can stop me thinking right?haha...ok then I couldn't sleep until 4am...it wasn't because of the above incident but I was reading SPI site which was scary as it was explaining what invesigation they conducted during the 7th lunar month...and there were pictures to show of streaks of light and orbs capture on the photos...for one row of pictures,the caption said "people have be report sick or not well after downloading the pictures,you have been warned..."how errie was that right?which was hair raising...I encourage you to go take a look...the site is below...anyway better go study now and do my best tomorrow...wish me luck...see ya...sayonara...=)
Here is the SPI (click) website address...do take a look,at your own risk...
Here is the SPI (click) website address...do take a look,at your own risk...
Oh No!!!Die Already...Haiz...
Tuesday, August 21, 2007 9:39 AM
Hi everyone...today had the macro exam...haiz...now I damn confused don't know what to type first...ok anyway last night couldn't sleep cause got this damn flu which kept me awake until like 2 plus,so instead I woke up to study until 2 plus the slept...then it was I set my alarm to 6 am to study more but couldn't wake up was really tired but I heard my alarm so I was in a semi-conscious so set it to 6.30am but later to 7am lastly...haha...wasn't really in the state for sitting for the exam considering having a flu and surviving on 3 hous plus of sleep...but life like that right?you hang in there and move on...ok anyway then went to school...wanted walk faster to blk 56 one so catch a few minutes to revise...but ass man got this group of girls walk like its their own road like that,walk in four a row which was like damn irritating and whatsmore walk so slow I wanted to die...anyway the room was like damn freaking cold again and it was raining which I was like isn't the 'great'?haha...
Ok let me tell you about the paper?My aim is to get a high B for the module but I doubt it already...so it was the reading time...I was stupid lar,didn't have time to read money so I just glance through...I was like they surely won't ask what is the function of money cause a year ago they asked already...but GUESS WHAT?!it came out...was thinking of all things to come out this came out or why it couldn't happen for another module and for the fiat money thingy came out but at that time forget what it was lor,was something like almost worthless or something like that...wah lao,if I had studied that topic properly then will not happen already...I guess the question was setted by mr lee and it was to help us,but who knows it didn't for me...I wanted to stab myself at the moment lar...haiz...I was like o shit I don't know this,and this too,o and that too...wtf man...and there was this feeling of despair coming over me...as though my future was bleak...and I am not kidding about this,I don't think I want to experience it again man...it is kind of scary,like you are about to die like that...I guess during the reading time I was freaking out,and while doing the paper I was panicking and partially thinking of the other questions...so things was starting to slipped from my mind and did not really think properly and wrote it down...the first few questions in question one was like I don't know how to do lar...ok then moving on the government question I didn't know what I am doing but I don't know the second part whether correct or wrong...but have a feeling of 80% that I think wrong,which was going to affect the rest of the part...haiz...then the money question,forget about it...don't talk about it liao..then was the Singapore economy was ok...I was like if known earlier I study the solutions can already,don't waste my time studying the problems faced...and there was this 2 marks question which asked "what was Singapore's economic growth rate for 2006?"I was like what is this man,who in the right mind will know?haha...I don't know whether the question was to help us or kill us?haha...but I guess mrs ng will say that question is to make people be too proud...haha...so I crapped and put 7.5% later changing it to 7%...haha...I don't anything already,I guess I will fail the paper but hope I pull through...I feel damn sad now man,cause all the grades in poly does affect your final GPA in the third year upon graduation...haiz...At the bus stop,was waiting for the bus with pei jiao then hasanah and meng kui came chat for a while then pei jiao left...after that didn't talk to them cause was stil thinking about the exam...haiz...but felt a little awkward...ok maybe not a little but a lot...haha..then their bus came and we said bye and soon after I borad my bus too...
I guess I don't know what to say now already...but to await fate...I think the paper is ok but if have studied well,which I didn't...I felt it was a WASTE!!!all those hours of studying gone down the drain...but I not going to blame anyone but...MYSELF!!!argh...now I feel like banging my head against the wall and dying...*sigh*...I guess this spells out Death for me(and thats with the capital "D")...haiz...I thought that after ending this paper and enjoy the holidays,I would be happy but...I feel worse than ever...if I could turn back the clock,I guess I would spend more time on macro and may be will not be regretting now...haiz...for bmgt I thought cannot do but I could(but the marks obtained is a different case)...while the macro I thought can do but couldn't...I guess never predict the future as it will turn around drastically and bite you in the ass...anyway I guess the saying goes "don't cry over spilled milk" but how can I not?I guess it will surely affect me...3 down 1 more to go...infa left...and I am not going to flunk this one too...I going to study damn intensively...grrr...anyway gtg now...wish me luck...haha...see ya...take care everyone... =(
Ok let me tell you about the paper?My aim is to get a high B for the module but I doubt it already...so it was the reading time...I was stupid lar,didn't have time to read money so I just glance through...I was like they surely won't ask what is the function of money cause a year ago they asked already...but GUESS WHAT?!it came out...was thinking of all things to come out this came out or why it couldn't happen for another module and for the fiat money thingy came out but at that time forget what it was lor,was something like almost worthless or something like that...wah lao,if I had studied that topic properly then will not happen already...I guess the question was setted by mr lee and it was to help us,but who knows it didn't for me...I wanted to stab myself at the moment lar...haiz...I was like o shit I don't know this,and this too,o and that too...wtf man...and there was this feeling of despair coming over me...as though my future was bleak...and I am not kidding about this,I don't think I want to experience it again man...it is kind of scary,like you are about to die like that...I guess during the reading time I was freaking out,and while doing the paper I was panicking and partially thinking of the other questions...so things was starting to slipped from my mind and did not really think properly and wrote it down...the first few questions in question one was like I don't know how to do lar...ok then moving on the government question I didn't know what I am doing but I don't know the second part whether correct or wrong...but have a feeling of 80% that I think wrong,which was going to affect the rest of the part...haiz...then the money question,forget about it...don't talk about it liao..then was the Singapore economy was ok...I was like if known earlier I study the solutions can already,don't waste my time studying the problems faced...and there was this 2 marks question which asked "what was Singapore's economic growth rate for 2006?"I was like what is this man,who in the right mind will know?haha...I don't know whether the question was to help us or kill us?haha...but I guess mrs ng will say that question is to make people be too proud...haha...so I crapped and put 7.5% later changing it to 7%...haha...I don't anything already,I guess I will fail the paper but hope I pull through...I feel damn sad now man,cause all the grades in poly does affect your final GPA in the third year upon graduation...haiz...At the bus stop,was waiting for the bus with pei jiao then hasanah and meng kui came chat for a while then pei jiao left...after that didn't talk to them cause was stil thinking about the exam...haiz...but felt a little awkward...ok maybe not a little but a lot...haha..then their bus came and we said bye and soon after I borad my bus too...
I guess I don't know what to say now already...but to await fate...I think the paper is ok but if have studied well,which I didn't...I felt it was a WASTE!!!all those hours of studying gone down the drain...but I not going to blame anyone but...MYSELF!!!argh...now I feel like banging my head against the wall and dying...*sigh*...I guess this spells out Death for me(and thats with the capital "D")...haiz...I thought that after ending this paper and enjoy the holidays,I would be happy but...I feel worse than ever...if I could turn back the clock,I guess I would spend more time on macro and may be will not be regretting now...haiz...for bmgt I thought cannot do but I could(but the marks obtained is a different case)...while the macro I thought can do but couldn't...I guess never predict the future as it will turn around drastically and bite you in the ass...anyway I guess the saying goes "don't cry over spilled milk" but how can I not?I guess it will surely affect me...3 down 1 more to go...infa left...and I am not going to flunk this one too...I going to study damn intensively...grrr...anyway gtg now...wish me luck...haha...see ya...take care everyone... =(
End from my mini break...
Sunday, August 19, 2007 6:46 AM
Hello everyone...it's been a while,back from my little study break...haha...better update or else eunice gonna kill me...haha...ok anyway yesterday was Blaw exam...it was ok...didn't have enough time to complete the paper even for almost every second of the 2 hours were writing...but reached school at 8.30 like that...while walking to block 56 saw haiza,hasanah and meng kui...then tapped haiza's shoulder,she suddenly laugh,scare me I thought my hand got some laughing powder...actually she was shocked...she ask me not to do it again I guess I shocked badly...haha...don't worry you are not the only one,scared man people before you...haha...anyway when I reached there the door opened I was thinking wah so fast sia...still was so early was sitting there for like 20 minutes and cannot even see notes...ok anyway it was pouring when I mean pouring,it is POURING it was like someone pouring a bucket of water down from above...in the room was so cold man...my blood circulation was slowing down that's why wrote a little slow...haha...ok after the exam I couldn't feel my fingers man,it was numb until like got frostbite man(even though never had frostbite..haha...)then went home to revise business management...it really sucks man...had to study so many things..and the module leader refuse to give hints sia...but I knew she will give clues at the revision lecture so listening and the part she was emphasising I knew was coming out...but when suddenly after felt hopeless after reading the notes...was thinking where got so good one man...but it was damn hard to remember whenever close the file then forget everything...haiz...I think I was 1% to craziness...I felt couldn't take...morale or the story???do your tutorials and listen in lectures...I did not complete one full tutorial(not finishing one question) since the start of the module...best right?haha...
Ok enough about yesterday...about today it was ok...woke up really early at 7...I thought of waking up earlier at 6 to revise but couldn't...haha...so I thought it was 7.40am so woke up bathe and do everything then what you know it was only 7.20am and somemore thought why no one woken up yet...haha...told you,was losing my sanity...haha...ok then before entering the exam hall I felt this kind of fear never before...it was experiencing death for the first time...I went in like not understand what the hell I read...I guess it was the first time when taking an exam and not knowing 70% of it...haha...ok then got 10 minutes of reading time then luckily things start to refresh my mind...I was like "A...I like know this,feel the urge to write things but cannot...haha...it was lucky that motivation didn't come out,didn't do study that chapter at all(opps)...then start writing until my hand pain man...it was like yesterday,didn't have enough time but just manage to finish in time...haha...ok now I learnt my lesson,poly exams don't give you time to check or think unlike secondary school or the recent common test where you can still take a 15-minute nap...haha...I guess it is what mrs ng always say "you must know you stuffs when sit for my paper(but it was not her paper,yet)"haha..just before the paper end it was pouring again...
Then went for lunch,had yong tau foo...haha...then went to the temple near clementi mrt to pray my ancestors during the 7th lunar month...it a temple when during the 7th lunar month they chant prayers every night to appease the spirits...was lazy so didn't go on the first day(monday) to pray...they changed a little now there is only one urn for all the joss-sticks...actually at the beginning there was an urn for the Buddha and the ancestors separately for each sector but then they made urns for the ancestors only and for the Buddha it was just a spiral burning incense which was separate from the other and now to reduce smoke I think, it was they had only one common urn...then about to leave saw at a sector there was a low-level table with food and milk bottles...I think it is for the children siprits that had passed away...but something that puzzle always is that there is always a old wooden tablet(while the other tablets is made of one piece of paper and if you fork out more money I think it is a folded up one)but don't know who is it...wanted to take picture of it but better not right?haha...anyway before you all go to dreamland,I better stop...haha...yeah!!!at last left 2 papers:macro and infa...gtg now...wanted to sleep for a while then go for dinner then study for macro...haha...sorry I know the last its a bored...okok enough for today...see ya...take care,everyone...ciao... =)
Picture of the temple taken before I left...haha...the top of the building is the Buddha and beside is the Goddess of Mercy on a dragon(but can't see the dragon though)...
Ok enough about yesterday...about today it was ok...woke up really early at 7...I thought of waking up earlier at 6 to revise but couldn't...haha...so I thought it was 7.40am so woke up bathe and do everything then what you know it was only 7.20am and somemore thought why no one woken up yet...haha...told you,was losing my sanity...haha...ok then before entering the exam hall I felt this kind of fear never before...it was experiencing death for the first time...I went in like not understand what the hell I read...I guess it was the first time when taking an exam and not knowing 70% of it...haha...ok then got 10 minutes of reading time then luckily things start to refresh my mind...I was like "A...I like know this,feel the urge to write things but cannot...haha...it was lucky that motivation didn't come out,didn't do study that chapter at all(opps)...then start writing until my hand pain man...it was like yesterday,didn't have enough time but just manage to finish in time...haha...ok now I learnt my lesson,poly exams don't give you time to check or think unlike secondary school or the recent common test where you can still take a 15-minute nap...haha...I guess it is what mrs ng always say "you must know you stuffs when sit for my paper(but it was not her paper,yet)"haha..just before the paper end it was pouring again...
Then went for lunch,had yong tau foo...haha...then went to the temple near clementi mrt to pray my ancestors during the 7th lunar month...it a temple when during the 7th lunar month they chant prayers every night to appease the spirits...was lazy so didn't go on the first day(monday) to pray...they changed a little now there is only one urn for all the joss-sticks...actually at the beginning there was an urn for the Buddha and the ancestors separately for each sector but then they made urns for the ancestors only and for the Buddha it was just a spiral burning incense which was separate from the other and now to reduce smoke I think, it was they had only one common urn...then about to leave saw at a sector there was a low-level table with food and milk bottles...I think it is for the children siprits that had passed away...but something that puzzle always is that there is always a old wooden tablet(while the other tablets is made of one piece of paper and if you fork out more money I think it is a folded up one)but don't know who is it...wanted to take picture of it but better not right?haha...anyway before you all go to dreamland,I better stop...haha...yeah!!!at last left 2 papers:macro and infa...gtg now...wanted to sleep for a while then go for dinner then study for macro...haha...sorry I know the last its a bored...okok enough for today...see ya...take care,everyone...ciao... =)
Picture of the temple taken before I left...haha...the top of the building is the Buddha and beside is the Goddess of Mercy on a dragon(but can't see the dragon though)...
One more day...
Monday, August 13, 2007 3:27 AM
Hello...back to blog...been really bored...been revising the modules really bored...I hate it man,I always don't have focus then always study halfway then watch tv...haha...I know need to be more focus liao,can play play...like PCK says "don't play play"...haha...lame...ok I don't know why I suddenly write that...haha...actually till now I don't even have actual plan,I everyday just wake up and say ok I feel like studying macro then study macro...haha...I guess that a road to failure...anyway I can't wait for the exams to be over on the other hand I hope it does come so fast cause not yet study finish...haha...anyway better not blog so long,need to study...o btw in less than 24 hours it the 7th lunar month already...a word of advice,do practice caution...gtg now...see ya...won't be back until next weekend ba...ok see ya everyone...take care...good luck to everyone having their exams soon...bye... =)
National Day!!!Happy Birthday,Singapore!
Friday, August 10, 2007 6:27 AM
Hello...not been blogging since monday...haha...anyway this week staying home all day cause don't need to go school...haha...OMG!!!suddenly I feel that there is so little time left and still so much to do...haiz...yesterday suppose to meet hq and eunice for breakfast but in the end woke up late...so didn't meet her...then later sms eunice then she say she not going also...I was Oh No!hq come all the way down at mac then no one turn up...I feel sad for her sia...I am also so so so sorry,darling...I know she say ok but surely in her heart is cursing at us...haha...kidding...but I know she will be pissed off...this time cannot,after exams meet ok?so sorry again darling...owe u one...anyway then life been boring so didn't blog...yesterday played maple and reach level 30 liao...haha...and became a bandit...ok I know I goig to get scolded for playing and not studying...ok better get down to business already...anyway this week may not even blog or the most one...need to concentrate on studies liao...haha...sounds so serious hor?haha...but feel free to scribble at the tagboard...will be coming to check on it once in a while...maybe won't be back until the exams or after it...haha...o btw today is Singapore's birthday...can't wait to see this year's parade...gtg now...need to revise on the modules liao...see ya...take care everyone... =)
HAPPY 42TH BIRTHDAY,SINGAPORE!!!
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY,EVERYONE!!! ENJOY THIS DAY!!! =p
Two helicopters flying to NDP 2007...
A helicopter pulling the state flag on its way to the world's largest floating platform @ Marina Bay for the national anthem...taken from my house's window...
HAPPY 42TH BIRTHDAY,SINGAPORE!!!
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY,EVERYONE!!! ENJOY THIS DAY!!! =p
Two helicopters flying to NDP 2007...
A helicopter pulling the state flag on its way to the world's largest floating platform @ Marina Bay for the national anthem...taken from my house's window...
Done at last...yeah!!!
Tuesday, August 07, 2007 12:22 PM
Hi...today at last,can throw away the Excel book already...haha...ok today the test is so called manageable...my data table all showed zero,so it was damn funny...haha...anyway that stupid invigilator asshole man...he make me more nervous than I already am...ok anyway everyone was going into their room then hassanah opened the door to see whether we can go in,then he say cannot go in yet...then if I am not wrong the module leader ask us to go in then he open the door to let us in...wth right?anyway he somemore keep telling us not to talk when we weren't like really talking...then he ask us to turn our screen to the front of us...cause the screens were slanted to a 45 degree angle...when he turned mine then cannot as it was stuck to the table...I wanted to laugh man...wah lau he suppose to tell us open which file to open as there was two different papers...wasted 3 minutes of our time...anyway after the test then when we going off then ask us not to discuss it,later feel bad...???...question mark right?he so whatever man...
Ok...it proves me correct everytime...ht always talk like 90-95%...cause was meeting pj at the bus stop then ht was waiting with her so when I came down from the bus,after closing her laptop she started her damn irritating speech...talk about everything under the sun...then she wanted to eat tako...so she pass me her laptop,ok I didn't mind helping her carry it...so the whole way to block 46 she was talking the WHOLE journey as usual only for pausing for like 1 minute...wtf...then when she eaten finish,passed her the laptop...she took it without a word of thanks...she think I am what?her bf?her maid?even these people derserve a word of thanks lor...actually I am not making a big fuss over a word of thanks but at least have basic courtesy...ok anyway was waiting outside the room for the test...here is the dialogue...
HT:(talking to me) Wah...you wear tie not hot meh?today so hot already...
Me:(smile)
Shauna: Wearing tie does not make people hot...
HT:(pretended not to hear and kept quiet)
*not the actual dialouge but about it...
Okok...to explain a little further is because I was wearing this thin tie that was not pulled all the way to my neck,was wearing it loosely so it was not hot...Ok anyway when I heard that comment from shauna,I was one-third shocked,one-third happy and one-third grateful...haha...I was a little shocked shauna said that to ht...but was damn happy cause shauna helped me rebutted that asshole...opps ot supose to say that...haha...and really really really grateful to shauna for saying that cause I never say much to ht whenever she talks...that would put her in her place and teach her not to talk so much...here I want to say something "THANK YOU VERY MUCH,SHUANA!!!"haha...at that time I wanted to give a hi-5 to shauna or show her a thumb-up but didn't...haha...now I admire her not only for her academic results but her courage too...for standing up to 'her'...haha...thanks again...haha...I got the blue question paper so the first question was the data table so I think I screwed up that whole question which is 20 marks...haha...and the solver question also it sucks...cause one box I fill up wrongly so a box keeps poping out so didn't care anyhow put in a box and didn't put the original table on another sheet...haha...anyway it done...so don't have to see it again...haha...okok better continue my revision...a bit sad cause didn't complete as much as I planned over the weekend...better make up for it,this week...gtg now...see ya...bye... =)
Ok...it proves me correct everytime...ht always talk like 90-95%...cause was meeting pj at the bus stop then ht was waiting with her so when I came down from the bus,after closing her laptop she started her damn irritating speech...talk about everything under the sun...then she wanted to eat tako...so she pass me her laptop,ok I didn't mind helping her carry it...so the whole way to block 46 she was talking the WHOLE journey as usual only for pausing for like 1 minute...wtf...then when she eaten finish,passed her the laptop...she took it without a word of thanks...she think I am what?her bf?her maid?even these people derserve a word of thanks lor...actually I am not making a big fuss over a word of thanks but at least have basic courtesy...ok anyway was waiting outside the room for the test...here is the dialogue...
HT:(talking to me) Wah...you wear tie not hot meh?today so hot already...
Me:(smile)
Shauna: Wearing tie does not make people hot...
HT:(pretended not to hear and kept quiet)
*not the actual dialouge but about it...
Okok...to explain a little further is because I was wearing this thin tie that was not pulled all the way to my neck,was wearing it loosely so it was not hot...Ok anyway when I heard that comment from shauna,I was one-third shocked,one-third happy and one-third grateful...haha...I was a little shocked shauna said that to ht...but was damn happy cause shauna helped me rebutted that asshole...opps ot supose to say that...haha...and really really really grateful to shauna for saying that cause I never say much to ht whenever she talks...that would put her in her place and teach her not to talk so much...here I want to say something "THANK YOU VERY MUCH,SHUANA!!!"haha...at that time I wanted to give a hi-5 to shauna or show her a thumb-up but didn't...haha...now I admire her not only for her academic results but her courage too...for standing up to 'her'...haha...thanks again...haha...I got the blue question paper so the first question was the data table so I think I screwed up that whole question which is 20 marks...haha...and the solver question also it sucks...cause one box I fill up wrongly so a box keeps poping out so didn't care anyhow put in a box and didn't put the original table on another sheet...haha...anyway it done...so don't have to see it again...haha...okok better continue my revision...a bit sad cause didn't complete as much as I planned over the weekend...better make up for it,this week...gtg now...see ya...bye... =)
100th Post...
Monday, August 06, 2007 11:12 AM
Hello everyone...its a miracle,I have reached the 100th post for my blog...it is surprising cause before starting a blog,I have always said who start a blog is crazy man,and here I started one...contradicting right?anyway lets moves on...today went to my granduncle's birthday party...it was soso,cause we were not at the actual restaurant so was 'transfer' to a function room...meaning the variety was as much...but as we was walking up the stairs to the restaurant at the side was decorated with flowers and candles,it was really quite romantic and discovered after that it was some wedding workshop..then later after being directed to the correct room...my family was like first to reach there and somemore I thought half the people was already there...anyway,then wish my granduncle happy birthday but I doubt he remembers me...haha...he looks really healthy cause he recently suffered from a slight stoke...was glad to see him so healthy whatsmore he is 80 plus...then waited for a while for some people who are familiar to me before started to eat but didn't know when they were coming so in the end started first...ok next...my uncles and aunties came but called them didn't know when they heard or not...ok the food didn't kind of really sucks...some supposedly to be salty is sweet,for example the curry puff I ate,had sweet corn in it...which was like...WEIRD...then noodles was a bit soggy...so again not nice...I think it was an all time bad,compared to previous years...anyway deserts was passable but not the fruits its taste like water...ok let me explain,there were juice but it was tasteless,don't even have the fruity taste in it...haha...ok then I think one of my father's cousin came...so I wanted to say hi and smile,so I smiled first and in the end he was like just looked at me and then shake my father's hand...I was like wth,am I transparent or what?sometimes,I just wish to be famous,as in superstar famous then pretend to be snobbish to those people that treat me like that in the past...and maybe people will take me seriously...muhahaha...okok lets pop that bubble...I am not that evil...haha...and cause it not going to happen as I can assure everyone and myself that I will not be famous as I have not courage to join some talent competition or that 'IT' factor to become famous...haha...
Then ok, me and cousin when to take tea but coincidentally the staff took the flask for a refill so we were left there to wait for it to come back then my long-extend cousin who is like what...secondary 1 or 2...she then folded her arms cause she wanted to take coffee or something...so we took our cups and went to walk around for a while...when the hot water return we went to pour it into our cups...then she don't how to operate it so the manager was teaching her how to do it...haha...so me and my cousin laughed when we were bad at the table...ok,sorry for so evil,I guess it is cultivated...haha...at these BIG family functions is good cause you can laugh at these people who you hardly know and not feel bad about it...those who agree with me say "I"...haha...anyway we call her the princess, cause every year be it new year or gatherings she wear the same damn type of dress...those fairytale type so her nickname was derived as that...haha...if she is primary school its ok you know but she is secondary school...what sia...anyway this year I heard it was "wedding cake"...haha...ok I better stop laughing at people or else it will be me next...haha...or worse it will be my children...OMG!!!okok stop gossiping about people tomorrow got the BCA hands-on test...better go and revise those functions...haha...see ya guys...take care... =)
Her dress looks like that but without the collar...it hilarious in a way...haha...and it is PINK somemore...sorry...not suppose to laugh...
Then ok, me and cousin when to take tea but coincidentally the staff took the flask for a refill so we were left there to wait for it to come back then my long-extend cousin who is like what...secondary 1 or 2...she then folded her arms cause she wanted to take coffee or something...so we took our cups and went to walk around for a while...when the hot water return we went to pour it into our cups...then she don't how to operate it so the manager was teaching her how to do it...haha...so me and my cousin laughed when we were bad at the table...ok,sorry for so evil,I guess it is cultivated...haha...at these BIG family functions is good cause you can laugh at these people who you hardly know and not feel bad about it...those who agree with me say "I"...haha...anyway we call her the princess, cause every year be it new year or gatherings she wear the same damn type of dress...those fairytale type so her nickname was derived as that...haha...if she is primary school its ok you know but she is secondary school...what sia...anyway this year I heard it was "wedding cake"...haha...ok I better stop laughing at people or else it will be me next...haha...or worse it will be my children...OMG!!!okok stop gossiping about people tomorrow got the BCA hands-on test...better go and revise those functions...haha...see ya guys...take care... =)
Her dress looks like that but without the collar...it hilarious in a way...haha...and it is PINK somemore...sorry...not suppose to laugh...
Sad and a sense of something missing...
Saturday, August 04, 2007 4:46 PM
Hi everyone...in 8 minutes time its midnight so I will put everything in write everything in about today and not use the term yesterday...ok anyway today went to school for bmgt lecture and it was the last lecture for the whole sem...again it was for revision...before tapping my card, cara and xian kai(ok I will call him kai cause don't know which xian he wants me to write:hiang or xian)...haha...anyway then suddenly I guess cara wanted to call me or play a trick of me or something then suddenly I jumped or you could say jerked with shock...then when I looked behind cara face was a bit shocked too...it was damn funny then me,cara and kai all laughed...it was damn hilarious...haha...then kai told me not to worry cause he won't tell my secret to any one...haha...then I tap my card and went in...the lecture ended at 12.30pm plus...
At the bus stop saw haiza and hassanah...then when I was looking down pondering over something suddenly pei jiao said bye to me,so I thought her bus said so I said bye to her...when I looked up it was my bus...haha...so i was in a state of shcok that I forget To say my goodbyes to haiza and hassanah...then left to board the bus...so later send haiza a goodbye sms which was a little weird...cause who sends a sms like that right?haha...so sucky man,the bus I took was non air-conditioned...so hot man,somemore wearing black...when I went to sit at the last sit the lady saw in the middle who was letting her grandchild lie down...so I moved in at the side sit..when I moved in I think I hitted her in the face with my bag strap...opps...haha...cause she swipe her upper lip so I guess I hitted her...haha...so went home and ate something watch a show and a movie called "sisterhood of travelling pants"...I think thats what's its called...and read the harry potter book adn sleep and then ate dinner then use my laptop and stuffs...I know I like pig like that hor?haha...
Anyway I just now just receive an comment from andril and read it...it did suddenly made me realise that everyone has changed so much in these 7-8 months and how much I miss my arca(big sister)...for that matter miss all my close friends(huai qiong,pei jie,baradhi,eunice,wendy,etc.)...it just saddens me that time really passes and I have now so little chances to talk to them face to face...secondary school life,teachers,help for 'O's,those evening in the library for self-study,rushing to complete my D&T project,doing TYS questions,most importantly friends...all I missed...but I am happy as some of them are happy in what they are doing...I guess it because they understand me more?and in an so called new environment,I have not really open up to th epeople around me,so I sometimes feel lonely as if I am alone in the world...I am really sorry to those people arund me...it's makes me sad that I can't have a more louder personality,so I have more friends...I guess its all my fault for not taking the frst step in meeting people...so I think I should slap myself in the face...I guess some parts of me wants to change but cannot...actually didn't really hate or dislike anyone so badly in secondary school..but now...haiz...to tell you the truth,if it does not sounds nice but I feel sick standing on the same ground as her...it makes me me really tired too,putting on an act everytime she is around...I know or feels she doesn't like me too,cause whenever she ask us things I would just don't say anything and p* will just answer and then will not ask about my opinion...it is just like I am invisible and my words just don't matter...you know I feel to an extend that she just uses me when she doesn't have friends...for example today,she ask us whether can take a day off and teach her infa which when p* answered then she so called self-claimed that p* is going to help and then didn't ask me already...is not that I want her attention,but if you want ask both of us at least have the courtesy for the other to reply too right?don't act and pretend to ask me then ignore what's happen...I can't believe I am going to say this but poly life is just making me very miserable...anyway I guess all this have been brought upon myself and I am not going to blame any for my doings...haiz...but how do you really know someone really well in like just 4 months and change a new class every semester..its really hard man...and have to meet new people all over again...I guess its sucks...anyway exams are coming,don't have time to think of these stuffs...I hope...anyway gtg now...need to sleep liao...see ya folks...bye...take care...love and miss ya... =(
At the bus stop saw haiza and hassanah...then when I was looking down pondering over something suddenly pei jiao said bye to me,so I thought her bus said so I said bye to her...when I looked up it was my bus...haha...so i was in a state of shcok that I forget To say my goodbyes to haiza and hassanah...then left to board the bus...so later send haiza a goodbye sms which was a little weird...cause who sends a sms like that right?haha...so sucky man,the bus I took was non air-conditioned...so hot man,somemore wearing black...when I went to sit at the last sit the lady saw in the middle who was letting her grandchild lie down...so I moved in at the side sit..when I moved in I think I hitted her in the face with my bag strap...opps...haha...cause she swipe her upper lip so I guess I hitted her...haha...so went home and ate something watch a show and a movie called "sisterhood of travelling pants"...I think thats what's its called...and read the harry potter book adn sleep and then ate dinner then use my laptop and stuffs...I know I like pig like that hor?haha...
Anyway I just now just receive an comment from andril and read it...it did suddenly made me realise that everyone has changed so much in these 7-8 months and how much I miss my arca(big sister)...for that matter miss all my close friends(huai qiong,pei jie,baradhi,eunice,wendy,etc.)...it just saddens me that time really passes and I have now so little chances to talk to them face to face...secondary school life,teachers,help for 'O's,those evening in the library for self-study,rushing to complete my D&T project,doing TYS questions,most importantly friends...all I missed...but I am happy as some of them are happy in what they are doing...I guess it because they understand me more?and in an so called new environment,I have not really open up to th epeople around me,so I sometimes feel lonely as if I am alone in the world...I am really sorry to those people arund me...it's makes me sad that I can't have a more louder personality,so I have more friends...I guess its all my fault for not taking the frst step in meeting people...so I think I should slap myself in the face...I guess some parts of me wants to change but cannot...actually didn't really hate or dislike anyone so badly in secondary school..but now...haiz...to tell you the truth,if it does not sounds nice but I feel sick standing on the same ground as her...it makes me me really tired too,putting on an act everytime she is around...I know or feels she doesn't like me too,cause whenever she ask us things I would just don't say anything and p* will just answer and then will not ask about my opinion...it is just like I am invisible and my words just don't matter...you know I feel to an extend that she just uses me when she doesn't have friends...for example today,she ask us whether can take a day off and teach her infa which when p* answered then she so called self-claimed that p* is going to help and then didn't ask me already...is not that I want her attention,but if you want ask both of us at least have the courtesy for the other to reply too right?don't act and pretend to ask me then ignore what's happen...I can't believe I am going to say this but poly life is just making me very miserable...anyway I guess all this have been brought upon myself and I am not going to blame any for my doings...haiz...but how do you really know someone really well in like just 4 months and change a new class every semester..its really hard man...and have to meet new people all over again...I guess its sucks...anyway exams are coming,don't have time to think of these stuffs...I hope...anyway gtg now...need to sleep liao...see ya folks...bye...take care...love and miss ya... =(
Exams getting closer...
Friday, August 03, 2007 1:54 PM
Hi everyone...wanted to blog yesterday but nothing to blog cause was home all day as the IS modules are finished...anyway I am going to die man...2 weeks and 1 day left before my exams...shit sia and wanted to start yesterday and in the end did not...so I promise...ok not promise but swear I will start this weekend...haha...shouldn't laugh not funny...anyway today went to school for BLaw lecture which was only like for an hour and 5 mintues...which was good but had to stay until 5.30 for some movie so can get CCA points...opps sorry being kaisu here...haha...anyway the lecture was ok...she say lesser of her cold jokes...I notice when coming nearer to exams the lecturers like more serious for example mrs ng...haha...maybe worried for us ba...suppose to sit with haiza but ht went in first so she found a place before us...so sorry,haiza...anyway mrs gopalan said like what we needed remember and stuff...it seems easy but I tell you later surely all the things will be tons and tons to remember and whatsmore its not going to be easy...it seems easy when the teacher says it but when you touch the notes,everything will take an 180 degree change...I don't know whether I will pass man...that time common test LAC did damn badly and now got 3 LAC questions...how man?and whatsmore got other modules to revise like bmgt which is damn freaking boring and dry...and have not been really been paying 100% attention to the lectures besides the recent few...don't think I can make it sia...so little time left...really afraid man...its a miracle if I pass everything...guess I will have to work with the little time I've got...then about the movie,it was kind of boring but towards the end it was funny...saw tze wen and meng kui there too...and at the end said hi to shi hui and heard her friend say I was from her IS class...haha...anyway went back and ate dinner watched some tv and now blogging...anyway tommorrow school starts late again..haha...starts at 11 and ends at 1...haha...so happy...and the last lecture of the whole sem...haha...anyway gtg now...a little tired...see ya everyone...nighty night... =)
Back to update moi blog...
Wednesday, August 01, 2007 2:48 PM
Yoyo everyone...back to update my blog...yesterday went for aiki...I thought my whole body will not hurt a lot today as I was partner with a fellow white belt or for that matter my body won't hurt...but it was damn pain today sia...my knees hurts from al the sliding on the floor...my arms,legs,and my butt kind of hurt...I think I sprain my neck too cause can't really raise my head to look up...haha...anyway lets move on...today had BLaw tutorial...then presented on a LAC question...suppose to me and ht do one but then I didn't do in word and never send to her...then she was like so shocked that got tutorial to do like that...ok then I give her see the thing that I have done then she was like how come so short because didn't really know how to do as like no relevant case and crap then...in class before mrs gopalan came and before our turn to presented and finish just in time...then ht put an 's' in application so I think mrs gopalan thinking I do one sia then say so near exams still makes these mistakes...I guess it was for me so didn't turn to face her...but not blaming anyone here,don't get mistaken...haha....but I can say she was in a good mood today so didn't really so called scold us...and surprisingly she didn't say much only she changed the conclusion only...heng ar...then the question I was doing was about copyright of songs...then mrs gopalan was like see so much efforts goes into making a song and then come to us as a CD so she asked us we are not going to download any songs anymore right?then we keep quiet and smile and she answered no...haha...suppose not to say these illegal stuff here...opps...sorry...ok weird I keep calling her gopalan but now adding a mrs in front...guess afraid she finds my blog and reads it...haha...anyway then she gave our 5% test back...it was kind of funny, ht forget to return her paper then mrs gopalan was like why you so blurr..haha...she keep hinting to us that we can leave and keep saying ok but no one stand up and was looking at her as she pack her bag...in the end she say we can leave then we leave...I don't why it was like bit sad cause the last tutorial liao...guess miss with her sarcastic remarks and cold humour...sometimes I think she makes a joke and no one laugh so a bit 'leng chang'(awkward situation)...haha...but she is always putting us down and comparing us to other classes...guess that part sucks...maybe now come to think of it,she didn't give the evaluation for us to do...later we give her a bad grade then she cannot teach BLaw already...haha...but I guess the putting is what gets us going right?
Anyway then it was macro revision lecture...mrs ng didn't seems as cheery and quirky as usually rather more impatient and edgy...but in the end she mixed us up as she thought we were the monday's batch which made mr nathan angry so treated us a little more stricter...but there were still jokes by calling someone mr oi and say to mark the acc and bs group's paper more lenient...haha...then it was goodbye to her...haiz,so sad...*sob sob*...but what puzzles me is that she say see us next semester she will see us in micro,don't tell me she is teaching micro...but I doubt so,I tihnk her meaning is that we will not repeat the module and move on...haha...then had an two-hour break...collected our tickets for the movie on thursday...and for lunch,had 2(yes,heard me 2) boxes of takopochi...haha...then did a little revision on infa and Blaw...haha...did a little reading on my tarot book...o talking about tarot book,yesterday shauna asked me whether I was studying tarot then I just nodded...sorry shauna didn't mean do that,was eating something...pardon me...
Then later when for the last infa lecture which was also revision...mrs chiu damn fuuny sia...cause people were taking photos of the slides then she say next time want to take must inform her then can smile and pose a bit...haha...somemore she say she shy,that was hilarious man...haha...anyway I she finish at 3.50pm plus then release us...as walking to the bustop wanted to talk to pei jiao before finishing the first sentence her bus came so she rush for it...maybe she didn't like talking to me...haha...o maybe I am just too sensitive...haha...ok I guess that wraps up my day...and guess what?tommorrow don't need to go school...YEAH!!!cause the IS modules are all done and I was the odd week people so finish an week early,feel sad for the even week ones...better start my revision for the other modules then...suppose to start on sunday but slack and exams are two weeks and less already...I guess better go now...my wireless is cranking up...o and btw found a really new mv on youtube really nice the scene and the song too!by zhang dong liang title "mo lu"...gtg now...see ya soon...take care,guys... =)
Here is the MV of "Mo Lu" by Zhang Dong Liang...Enjoy!!! =D
Lyrics of 陌路
我们都知道感情是盲目
我们都知道永远是虚无
再一步就看见爱迷路
每一次拥抱就换来糊涂
我们都知道拥抱 已麻木
我们都知道相爱不能继续宽恕
再付出就让爱情变成荒芜
才发现我们只 缺了个地图
也许爱不该让步 其实应该很清楚 我们的爱 已经走到陌路
就让我们的爱情 走到此结束 在一起没有幸福 就很迷糊
爱却不由自主 如果相信爱是感动的最远处
那时幸福 就会满足 让爱更清楚
我们都知道拥抱 已麻木
我们都知道相爱不能继续宽恕
再付出就让爱情变成了荒无
才发现我们 只缺了个地图
就让我们的爱情 走到了陌路
在一起没有幸福 就很迷糊
爱却不由自主 如果相信爱是感动的最远处
那时幸福就会满足 让爱更清楚
我知道你知道 那爱在不远处 就让我们完成这完美的演出
那一刻当你说 要离开的时候 其实我想要 再给你拥抱
就让我们的过去走到此结束 再一次 走到幸福不再迷糊
我会永远在乎 如果相信爱是感动的最远处
那时幸福就会满足 不再让你哭
Courtesy of http://www.musicpara.net...Thank You Very Much!
Anyway then it was macro revision lecture...mrs ng didn't seems as cheery and quirky as usually rather more impatient and edgy...but in the end she mixed us up as she thought we were the monday's batch which made mr nathan angry so treated us a little more stricter...but there were still jokes by calling someone mr oi and say to mark the acc and bs group's paper more lenient...haha...then it was goodbye to her...haiz,so sad...*sob sob*...but what puzzles me is that she say see us next semester she will see us in micro,don't tell me she is teaching micro...but I doubt so,I tihnk her meaning is that we will not repeat the module and move on...haha...then had an two-hour break...collected our tickets for the movie on thursday...and for lunch,had 2(yes,heard me 2) boxes of takopochi...haha...then did a little revision on infa and Blaw...haha...did a little reading on my tarot book...o talking about tarot book,yesterday shauna asked me whether I was studying tarot then I just nodded...sorry shauna didn't mean do that,was eating something...pardon me...
Then later when for the last infa lecture which was also revision...mrs chiu damn fuuny sia...cause people were taking photos of the slides then she say next time want to take must inform her then can smile and pose a bit...haha...somemore she say she shy,that was hilarious man...haha...anyway I she finish at 3.50pm plus then release us...as walking to the bustop wanted to talk to pei jiao before finishing the first sentence her bus came so she rush for it...maybe she didn't like talking to me...haha...o maybe I am just too sensitive...haha...ok I guess that wraps up my day...and guess what?tommorrow don't need to go school...YEAH!!!cause the IS modules are all done and I was the odd week people so finish an week early,feel sad for the even week ones...better start my revision for the other modules then...suppose to start on sunday but slack and exams are two weeks and less already...I guess better go now...my wireless is cranking up...o and btw found a really new mv on youtube really nice the scene and the song too!by zhang dong liang title "mo lu"...gtg now...see ya soon...take care,guys... =)
Here is the MV of "Mo Lu" by Zhang Dong Liang...Enjoy!!! =D
Lyrics of 陌路
我们都知道感情是盲目
我们都知道永远是虚无
再一步就看见爱迷路
每一次拥抱就换来糊涂
我们都知道拥抱 已麻木
我们都知道相爱不能继续宽恕
再付出就让爱情变成荒芜
才发现我们只 缺了个地图
也许爱不该让步 其实应该很清楚 我们的爱 已经走到陌路
就让我们的爱情 走到此结束 在一起没有幸福 就很迷糊
爱却不由自主 如果相信爱是感动的最远处
那时幸福 就会满足 让爱更清楚
我们都知道拥抱 已麻木
我们都知道相爱不能继续宽恕
再付出就让爱情变成了荒无
才发现我们 只缺了个地图
就让我们的爱情 走到了陌路
在一起没有幸福 就很迷糊
爱却不由自主 如果相信爱是感动的最远处
那时幸福就会满足 让爱更清楚
我知道你知道 那爱在不远处 就让我们完成这完美的演出
那一刻当你说 要离开的时候 其实我想要 再给你拥抱
就让我们的过去走到此结束 再一次 走到幸福不再迷糊
我会永远在乎 如果相信爱是感动的最远处
那时幸福就会满足 不再让你哭
Courtesy of http://www.musicpara.net...Thank You Very Much!