[WHO? Juin Wen aka. Vabien]
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Been writing some notes...
Saturday, September 29, 2007 12:30 PM
Yoyo...I know been not blogging these few days cause nothing much happened and not tried out any new recipes...but these 2 days been doing research on my tarot cards and doing a little handbook but it seems so hard as I read up on more cards...sometimes I just want to give up sia...but I guess I will perserve on ba...can't let those time I spend go to waste right?anyway I really going to die at home but luckily two weeks going back to school already...haha...one of those first few times I said I want to go back to school right?just remember today's friday...so if was in secondary school,there will be drama...haha...but it's just hilarious thinking that I would be complaining what the hell,did I choose drama as a cca and why are the sessions on fridays...anyway just miss those warming up exercises getting ready for plays and the improvisation...it's damn funny...there will always be a good laugh and then the session ends...haha...too bad,would go back and help but mr fuad is gone,so it seems pointless if I go back...yesterday after doing a bit research on tarot then went to sleep...before going to sleep about 2 plus,coming to 3...just as I shut my eyes suddenly a past disturbing thought shot into my mind out of no where...all those feelings I felt at that time all started coming back...it was just scary...after trying to clear my mind,I fell asleep...haiz...anyway these past week suddenly felt the urge and the interest of learning ancient chinese arts...such as chinese medicine and their uses,chinese rites,food,fortune telling and even chinese exercises(tai ji)...how weird right?don't tell me 'gui shang shen' man...choi!maybe been watching too many shows...anyway better get a move on,still go loads to research on...been putting a halt on my cooking cause I almost kind of dry and whatsmore saving up to buy a armchair for my room and planning to go on a holiday next year...but wanna buy a new cap soon...haha...o btw pursuaded my mum to help me purchase something online,I would buy it myself but too bad I have no credit card...haha...and she agree and of course wil be paying her back...yeah!anyway gtg now...hope to see you soon...miss ya...take care people...love you loads... =)
Mid-Autumn Festival...
Wednesday, September 26, 2007 6:19 AM
Hey...back to blog...haha...today it the mid-autumn festival...so excited can't wait to see the moon...and eat the mooncakes and drink tea...the best of life, I can say...I guess it is an apropriate time to sing "Fly me to the Moon"...(read the first story below to get what I mean...)haha...yesterday did my ginger snaps at last but felt it didn't have enough ginger taste,so next time going to put more ginger in it...the pictures are in the previous entry...As promised for making my blog into a little information site on chinese festivals,below I have some origins of the mid-autumn festival...
Ok before I begin on the origins I will give you some information in a nutshell...There are actually 2 legends(I know) to this festival,but don't be mistaken there can be more...the mid-autumn festival falls on the 15th of the 8th lunar month and many chinese believe that the moon on this day(or should I say night) is the biggest,brightest and roundest compared to the rest of the other full moons in the year...It is one of the important festivals to the chinese and for more traditional families,it's a must for everyone in the family to come back for the reunion dinner...the moon is the roundest of the year so it represent the reunions of families so people from other places be it locally or overseas should be back for the dinner...if I am not wrong there is a saying that's goes like this "ri yuan yue yuan,da tuan yuan" which means the sun and moon is round and there is a big reunion...Ok enough about these before you all go "Snore-ville"...lets start on the origins...
The Origin of Moon Gazing: There was once a heavenly general, who was called Hou Yi,who hits anything on target with his magical bow and arrows. He was in love with this maiden in heaven named Chang Er and she was also in love with him. There was once tens suns, they each took their turn to shine on earth and once they rebel and appear all at the same time(talk about global warming...haha...) and the people were suffering as the water in wells and rivers have all dried up. So people could not farm or drink,as a result crops,animals and people were falling like flies. It is said that one sun bring prosperity and ten suns spells doom. Due to the righteous in Hou Yi, he decided to help the people and shoot down 9 suns even though he was defying the heaven decree. As the Jade Emperor did not want to kill them or else the earth will plunged in total darkness or having one sun means it will have to work non-stop(Imagine working at a 24-hour store without a break 24/7)or some reason or another. After shooting the 9 suns down, a messenger from heaven came to banished Hou Yi to earth to become a mortal. When he was about to be send to earth, Chang Er came to stop him but as no one could defy the Jade Emperor's orders, she decided to become mortal with him so that they can spend their life together forever. For a second reason, deities are supposedly not to fall in love or will be punished.
During the period on earth, Hou Yi was becoming famous as he was using his great archery skills to eliminate beasts that were threatening the villagers. Chang Er began to feel neglected as Hou Yi was becoming a different person: arrogant and proud and he was also going on more expeditions than before. Then, there was this chap called Feng Meng who was jealous of him and decided in order to get rid of him he had to be close to him, so he became his disciple. One day after defeating a beast in the mountain, the Queen Mother of the West gave him an elixir for his reward. (If one person eats it,the person will become immortal...if two,they will live forever) He was so happy,he went to tell Chang Er asap. After telling her the news, he went to meet Feng Meng as he wanted to present him gifts. When he came to the meeting place, Feng Meng hid in the bushes and shot him with an arrow,killing him instantly. During this time, Chang Er couldn't take it anymore and she drank the elixer, as she do not know how long could she remain with him as he was a changed person. Slowly she assended to moon(a cold,lonely and dark place)with her favourite rabbit(yu tu) where she spend eternity there and became the moon goddess,ruling the moon palace. As for Hou Yi, after he died he was resinated and for gaining much merits on earth, he was promoted to be the sun god to rule the sun palace. Thus the couple was separated and could no longer be together as the sun only comes out in the day and the moon in the night. Only during esciples, they could see each other for a while form a distance...
So every 15th of the 8th lunar month where the moon is the biggest,roundest and brightest, people will gaze at the moon thinking of Chang Er and hope to catch a glimpse of her with/without her rabbit...
(There is no such thing as sun gazing as it will spoil your eyes for sure...haha...and whatsmore the sun is always the same roundest,I think...haha...)
Here's a picture of Chang Er and her rabbit on the moon...She is said to have a radiant beauty, just like the moon on this very day...
Source: www.casacenina.com/catalog
Second Version: There was once a lady named Sixth Sister Yao, who was married to the son of the Yang family,who was still a little child due to some circumstances. The mother of the Yang family was a well known shrew. One day, she asked her daughter-in-law to weave 7 jin of cotton into cloth,if it was not done by morning she will receive a heavy beating by her. As it was impossible,her daughter-in-law tried her best to complete it all night. Out of a sudden,the oil lamp ran out of oil to provide for the fire, so she went outside and used the moonlight to guide her. It was already the fourth watch and Sixth Sister Yao was still weaving, the midst of her chore, a group of old men on a dragon boat appeared before her and told her to go and sleep but she refuse and suddenly a gust of wind came and blow all the dust into the air. When the wind had died down the men and the dragon boat was gone. As the moon was covered by the clouds,she could no longer work, she picked up her loom,cloth and the remainding cotton and went back into the house. So waited for the moon to re-appear again but as she waited longer and longer, she felt asleep.
The next morning, when her mother-in-law came in to see how much had her daughter-in-law done, she was very shocked to see that the loom was made out of gold! When asked, the daughter-in-law related the story to her. She recalled that there is a legend that is that on the 15th of the 8th lunar month, all the deities in the moon palace will leave the moon on their dragon boat to visit earth, only blessed and fortunate people will see them and whatever they first touch after the deities appearance will turn into gold. After knowing that Sixth Sister Yao was a lucky person, her mother-in-law no longer bully her,treated her nicely and even help her with the chores. So from that day forth, people will gaze at the moon on the 15th of the 8th lunar month till the fourth watch to see if they could spot the moon deities' dragon boat to receive their blessings.
I guess the deities' dragon boat will look something like that but much bigger and double storey and more beautiful...
Source: http://www.paulnoll.com/China/Tourism/Kaifeng-dragon-boat.html
The origin of mooncakes: After the fall of the Song Dynasty,the mongolians conquered and ruled China,they treated the people badly as they are afraid that they will be overthrown anytime. So the leader of the military stationed one mongolain soldier at every household to keep watch on their every move, preventing the villagers from staging any protest. So one day,the some villagers decided to met up in the forest to diverse a plan to overthrown the mongolians. It seems impossible to pass messages to each other as there was a mongolian soldier at every house but suddenly one of them came up with an idea of hiding pieces of paper in a biscuit to communicate with each other. After making the biscuits, they distribute it to the other villagers, the note reads "Kill the soldier at the third watch tonight" Thus some people add some rat poison to the biscuit and gave it to the soldier, some killing them with axes and knifes. To comerade the overthrowing of the mongolians, the chinese baked these biscuits on the 15th of the 8th lunar month. Now also known as mooncakes.
* As lengends there are many version, mine is the little of the many ones. And for the first story on moon gazing,I have combine two version that I know together...Hope you like it... :)
Traditions and Practices: Nowadays people will have reunion dinners on this day and after dinner they will go to a park or an open space to gaze at the moon. While gazing at the moon, they will consume mooncakes accompanied by chinese tea as mooncakes are heavy in taste, the tea will aid in digestion and to lighten the palate. Sometimes, pomelos(you zi) are eaten too as it has the same sounding as the 'you' in 'bao you', which means being protected. So by eating pomelos it can prevent us from any bad luck or evil spirits.While the adults sit around and chat and savour mooncakes, the children will be playing with their lantern by walking around, be it the electronic ones or the candles-litted ones. I guess it is a way showing-off one's own beautiful lanterns to the other children and I just love how it is seen from a distance in the dark.
Mooncakes are not only constricted to the normal baked and snow-skins ones. There are now tons of varieties, such as fried ones, wine ones, non-vegetarian ones, stuffed with chinese sausages, sugarless ones, multi-coloured ones, ice cream ones, yolk that are not yolks ones, the list goes on. In this present times, more and more varieties are coming up like no one business and the boxes they come in is so... WOW! the way the boxes that the mooncakes comes in are so exquitsive and creative. I have seen those that open up like a drawer to reveal the mooncakes and those that open up like a jewellery box. The designs are just countless. Everytime when going to the taka mooncakes fair, I will be very happy as you can sample the mooncakes and admire the boxes they come in too, I guess it comes as close to the image of a kid being in a candystore. Haha...
Lanterns nowadays are also not little. As a child, the trip to the shop at holland v. or beach road was always a thrilling and amazing one. There are so many types to choose from but only one is destined for us. It would be a Saturday trip to the store with my mum,sis,aunt and cousin after my sis and cousin school(the 5-day week have not been implimented). I always liked the candle-lited ones as the fun of it is that of lighting the new candles when the wax of the old ones is gone. If I am not wrong, my first ever lantern is a fish made from those cellophane paper that you see, but that year it was windy and my candle kept blowing out. One of my all time favourite and probably my sisters and cousins favourite is that of the sun and the moon made from paper. In the past, it is much larger but now it has reduced by about half.
The box containing the mooncakes...It's a HK brand,heard my mum say it is very popular in HK...
The common two types of skins for mooncakes: Snow Skin(White) & Baked(Brown)...
The snow skin is bought from bengawan solo...
The inside of the snow skin mooncake,contains 2 yolks...o btw the flavour of the skin is the banana flavour but the paste is the same...don't taste too bad...haha...
The baked one: Pure White Lotus Paste Without Yolk...
The yam paste mooncakes...To cook the skin they deep fried it...but very fattening...haha...
The mooncakes with a whole walnut in it and of course including lotus paste...
The pandan-flavoured snow skin mooncake from Jade Crystal Restaurant...
The inside contain 2 yolks...haha...
And Lastly wash down those mooncakes with a strong chinese tea...
Suggestion: "Tie Guan Yin" Tea(Iron Buddha Tea)...haha...
A Must-do on the Mid-Autumn Festival, Moon Gazing!!!
Both taken from my hall window but this is without flash and slightly closer...haha...
P.S.: Eat mooncakes and sip some tea...but don't eat too much as mooncakes can add some pounds to your weight...Excercise more after this...haha... =P
Family Gathering...
Tuesday, September 25, 2007 8:16 AM
Hey...its monday again...haha...anyway ok lets me start with Saturday...went to maxwell market to eat,was damn crowded I guess its because of the mid-autumn festival lightings at Chinatown...but I don't get it,its just turning on the lights and it going to be there for a couple of weeks(I think...) and you can see it all you want...yet people will just go there to watch and squeeze with others...you can see turning on lights even at home why waste time right?haha...I guess its the atmoshpere and at home we don't have large lanterns...haha...anyway cut my hair luckily it turned out ok as the woman wasn't there...haha...my sisters are crazy as in doughnuts crazy...when we just reached there,they walk to the doughnuts shop to lined up automatically...which was near where I cut my hair...how weird right?whatsmore we didn't even plan to buy doughnuts...haha...
Then went to taka to buy mooncakes...there was many people,there is like so many toothpicks and squashed mooncakes samples on the floor which was damn gross...I just don't get it,there are bins and containers for the rubbish and used toothpicks and yet people don't use them...is it really so hard just to throw away your stuffs and don't just throw it on the floor...my estimate for the number of toothpicks on the floor?1 million...or more...its like every step of the way it is impossible not to step on an toothpick...I heard my sis say that she saw a lady after eating something,she didn't like it she just spit it on the floor...which was damn disgusting,it not a coffee shop or on the streets leh...on a carpet in a MALL,for goodness sake...I think even a coffee shop is better lor...anyway was being elbowed and hit by bags by all directions,I almost died...and best it is so crowded until you can hardly breathe,saw a lady pushing a pram around..I was like OMG!!!talk about being at the wrong place at the wrong time...and guess what?in the pram was not a child but her bags of goods...Oh my,it's nightmare...then after that shop for a while,then waited for my dad to fetch us...while waiting these people asked me to help take photos for them,o btw there were Singaporeans about 20 years old plus...so I helped them,so took for them then went back to sit...but I thought I should have asked whether it was ok...but didn't so a bit regret maybe they didn't like the pic and wanted to take again but decided to forget it...maybe they hate me...haha...anyway come to think of it,I think I took too much space on top of them...haha...so sorry ar... :( Then went home...My sis pointed out say that the crossing from taka to paragon,will soon be digonal which mean you don't have to walk an L-shape get from the mandrin hotel to paragon...it's great man...caue I didn't believe then saw the drawing on the road and the traffic lights also added an extra green man...but its not in used yet...so don't use it yet or else it can get ugly...so next time you walking there do take a look...
Yesterday,went to my first aunt's house to celebrate the mid-autumn festival in advance cause,the actual day is this coming tuesday but everyone's working the next day,so that's why...anyway tried out the new Wii console..was damn cool...played boxing and tennis...you hold the remote control and as it has censors,it detect your movements and show according...the boxing was damn tiring and now my arm is damn sore...haha...then had the snowskin mooncakes...ate 2 pieces only though...one I ate was strawberry vodka and the other I forget already...the 'yolk' was cream or custard or something creamy coated chocolate...it was damn goooood...I thought everyone is going to bring mooncakes but no one brought except my 2nd aunt which was funny...and my 2nd aunt being quite well off,the mooncakes was from a few well-known hotels...and I know it's not cheap,as a usual box of mooncakes will cost $40++...so it quite ex considering the number of boxes...so thanks a lot 2nd aunt,the mooncakes were great...then sat around dining table to listen about stories...I like to sit at the dining table cause as you can hear what the latest news and at times ghost stories...haha...yesterday was just fantasitc...haha...o bt yesterday tried a recipe out yesterday on steamed egg cakes...it was ok but a little dense cause I think I did whip long enough so it wasn't fluffy...haha...anyway gtg now...see ya soon...will be uploading the ginger snaps pics later cause making it later...bye...take care... =)
The Box!!! from Munchy Donut @ Millenia Walk...
The Flavours(from left to right, top to bottom): banana custard with chocolate, bittersweet chocolate ,oreo white chocolate, butter cream custard with chocolate, cinnamon with white chocolate, coffee cream with white chocolate, (same), red bean custard with green tea & white chocolate, (same), peanut butter chocolate, (same)...
The steamed egg cakes I made...haha... :)
The Good,The Bad and... (cause not as expected but good enough...haha...)
The Ugly...haha...
Before...
After!!!
Then went to taka to buy mooncakes...there was many people,there is like so many toothpicks and squashed mooncakes samples on the floor which was damn gross...I just don't get it,there are bins and containers for the rubbish and used toothpicks and yet people don't use them...is it really so hard just to throw away your stuffs and don't just throw it on the floor...my estimate for the number of toothpicks on the floor?1 million...or more...its like every step of the way it is impossible not to step on an toothpick...I heard my sis say that she saw a lady after eating something,she didn't like it she just spit it on the floor...which was damn disgusting,it not a coffee shop or on the streets leh...on a carpet in a MALL,for goodness sake...I think even a coffee shop is better lor...anyway was being elbowed and hit by bags by all directions,I almost died...and best it is so crowded until you can hardly breathe,saw a lady pushing a pram around..I was like OMG!!!talk about being at the wrong place at the wrong time...and guess what?in the pram was not a child but her bags of goods...Oh my,it's nightmare...then after that shop for a while,then waited for my dad to fetch us...while waiting these people asked me to help take photos for them,o btw there were Singaporeans about 20 years old plus...so I helped them,so took for them then went back to sit...but I thought I should have asked whether it was ok...but didn't so a bit regret maybe they didn't like the pic and wanted to take again but decided to forget it...maybe they hate me...haha...anyway come to think of it,I think I took too much space on top of them...haha...so sorry ar... :( Then went home...My sis pointed out say that the crossing from taka to paragon,will soon be digonal which mean you don't have to walk an L-shape get from the mandrin hotel to paragon...it's great man...caue I didn't believe then saw the drawing on the road and the traffic lights also added an extra green man...but its not in used yet...so don't use it yet or else it can get ugly...so next time you walking there do take a look...
Yesterday,went to my first aunt's house to celebrate the mid-autumn festival in advance cause,the actual day is this coming tuesday but everyone's working the next day,so that's why...anyway tried out the new Wii console..was damn cool...played boxing and tennis...you hold the remote control and as it has censors,it detect your movements and show according...the boxing was damn tiring and now my arm is damn sore...haha...then had the snowskin mooncakes...ate 2 pieces only though...one I ate was strawberry vodka and the other I forget already...the 'yolk' was cream or custard or something creamy coated chocolate...it was damn goooood...I thought everyone is going to bring mooncakes but no one brought except my 2nd aunt which was funny...and my 2nd aunt being quite well off,the mooncakes was from a few well-known hotels...and I know it's not cheap,as a usual box of mooncakes will cost $40++...so it quite ex considering the number of boxes...so thanks a lot 2nd aunt,the mooncakes were great...then sat around dining table to listen about stories...I like to sit at the dining table cause as you can hear what the latest news and at times ghost stories...haha...yesterday was just fantasitc...haha...o bt yesterday tried a recipe out yesterday on steamed egg cakes...it was ok but a little dense cause I think I did whip long enough so it wasn't fluffy...haha...anyway gtg now...see ya soon...will be uploading the ginger snaps pics later cause making it later...bye...take care... =)
The Box!!! from Munchy Donut @ Millenia Walk...
The Flavours(from left to right, top to bottom): banana custard with chocolate, bittersweet chocolate ,oreo white chocolate, butter cream custard with chocolate, cinnamon with white chocolate, coffee cream with white chocolate, (same), red bean custard with green tea & white chocolate, (same), peanut butter chocolate, (same)...
The steamed egg cakes I made...haha... :)
The Good,The Bad and... (cause not as expected but good enough...haha...)
The Ugly...haha...
Before...
After!!!
Bad Luck Yesterday...Today???
Sunday, September 23, 2007 12:59 AM
Hello everyone...I dying of tiredness slept at 1 and woke up at 4am...now dying to sleep but must preserve or else tonight cannot sleep and that stupid cycle will occur again...anyway lets talk about yesterday...damn suay man...2 bad things happened...the first was that after bathing, I came out and did not step on the mat and yes you guessed it,I slipped...but luckily I didn't fall ass my right leg was caught onto the step of the toilet and my other leg slipped in front...was wobbling for like 3 seconds and before I did split,I grabbed hold onto the pillar and my sis said the whole incident lar...damn pai sae man...and for your information I was fully dressed...haha...ok then,the second incident was that after using my laptop with my earphones I quickly plugged it out and threw it aside and went to watch the tv...not knowing that it landed into my mum's previous day tea until my sis told me and fished it out for me,if I am not wrong it been sitting in there for a good 2 hours...haha...but luckily weren't my new earphones but quick unlikely that it will land in the cup cause it much too big but maybe in a bowl of soup...hope that it won't...(praying)...haha...anyway last night did the mua chee recipe I found...it turned out great but my sis as always will put me down by saying it was too soft which resulted the texture becoming weird and some other stuffs...but my mum thought was ok and so did I...I think going to do another batch after this entry maybe to make it more chewy will be adding more flour to this one..haha...had fried chicken wings from tanglin halt which was slightly burnt so did really enjoy it as much...Pj,I think I will do the ginger snaps next week ok?cause this week do a lot of things already...I think she is going to kill me...haha...
Ok anyway was thinking yesterday about this saying by Confucius "yi xiao wei xian" which translate filial piety comes first...which I think is not true...before I explain why,I think the reason for this thought was that had a little arguement with my mum yesterday...cause I said some things I shouldn't have and then the quarrel begin...then one thing that really hit me right to the core was that I said "you don't respect me,why should I respect you" and her reply?she said "yes I don't respect you"...so that set off my thinking...but don't get the wrong idea not bad mouthing my mum...I guess it was in a fit of anger she said it so i don't hold it against her...I was think is filial piety really the number one thing of all?is it because they gave birth to us they are right to do what they want even when it is wrong and we must obey?I guess its because of the gratitude we have to them that filial piety sprang up...I believe we should respect others people be it friends,strangers or even parents but if they don't respect us do we really still need to respect them at all,even if it is our parents...so I believe everyone one is equal and no ranking should be involved...but don't be mistaken filial piety is also important but is it that big number 1?and I not challenging the 1000-2000 year old man's philosophies...I just questioning whether is it correct or not...think about it...
Enough about the heavy subject...lets talk about something else...o btw I'm cutting my hair today...haha...I damn scared actually...later the cutter don't know how to cut according to what I want,I will have the disgusting hairstyle for the next 1-2 months...I hope I don't get that bit*h cutter called Crystal(how can I forget her name)...say don't how to cut when I explain to her,don't how to cut then don't cut lar...and say cut sloped say ugly...wtf...been cutting the place for so long and the same hairstyle for secondary school...no one say that...look at herself first man...just didn't say it in her face that I come there often and ask her to shut up...that place is at Millenia Walk outside Candy Empire...haha...ok anyway I guess I can't expect so much for a $10 cut...haiz...mum say want to bring me to a salon but I don't think I want really ex...hope my haircut goes well...wish me luck...gtg now...see ya...take care people... =)
Here's a pic of the mua chee... :)
Ok anyway was thinking yesterday about this saying by Confucius "yi xiao wei xian" which translate filial piety comes first...which I think is not true...before I explain why,I think the reason for this thought was that had a little arguement with my mum yesterday...cause I said some things I shouldn't have and then the quarrel begin...then one thing that really hit me right to the core was that I said "you don't respect me,why should I respect you" and her reply?she said "yes I don't respect you"...so that set off my thinking...but don't get the wrong idea not bad mouthing my mum...I guess it was in a fit of anger she said it so i don't hold it against her...I was think is filial piety really the number one thing of all?is it because they gave birth to us they are right to do what they want even when it is wrong and we must obey?I guess its because of the gratitude we have to them that filial piety sprang up...I believe we should respect others people be it friends,strangers or even parents but if they don't respect us do we really still need to respect them at all,even if it is our parents...so I believe everyone one is equal and no ranking should be involved...but don't be mistaken filial piety is also important but is it that big number 1?and I not challenging the 1000-2000 year old man's philosophies...I just questioning whether is it correct or not...think about it...
Enough about the heavy subject...lets talk about something else...o btw I'm cutting my hair today...haha...I damn scared actually...later the cutter don't know how to cut according to what I want,I will have the disgusting hairstyle for the next 1-2 months...I hope I don't get that bit*h cutter called Crystal(how can I forget her name)...say don't how to cut when I explain to her,don't how to cut then don't cut lar...and say cut sloped say ugly...wtf...been cutting the place for so long and the same hairstyle for secondary school...no one say that...look at herself first man...just didn't say it in her face that I come there often and ask her to shut up...that place is at Millenia Walk outside Candy Empire...haha...ok anyway I guess I can't expect so much for a $10 cut...haiz...mum say want to bring me to a salon but I don't think I want really ex...hope my haircut goes well...wish me luck...gtg now...see ya...take care people... =)
Here's a pic of the mua chee... :)
A Wake Up Call...
Thursday, September 20, 2007 1:04 PM
Hi everyone...today didn't do much...this morning was damn hot that woke up at 3am then used my laptop and watched tv until 7 then slept till 1.30pm...haha...long right?anyway watch even more tv and use the com...anyway was watching this taiwanese show,every week they will invite 3 guest to the show and the audience will be a group of university students...yesterday one guy came who came was that he was a contact juggler which was damn cool so tempting to learn...anyway the main subject is today's show...the three people who came were university students who not very well off...then this guy really impressed me...everything belonging to him is either provided by the school or given by friends...his family is so poor that they cannot clothes for him and he also have a younger brother who is in uni...anyway then just because he was coming on this show his mother gave him 1000NT (=S$45) to buy clothes...which was equivalent to one's month household expenses and have to work for his education...he also always eats the expired bread from the convenient store as it is free...he is also a sportsman who plays badminton and always faint during practices...o before I forget,the racket is given to him by the school as he is in the school team and his shoes will usually spoil so he have to mend it himself...on his way to the to the studio he lost his phone which cost only 500NT...after watching the show,it was damn 'qi liang' lar...
I guess it did give me a wake up call...to think that something that we buy can actually make up for someone else's household expenses...and one thing he said did made me very touched "even though I am not well off,I don't feel poor at all as my mum love me very much which makes me very wealthy"...so maybe I guess all of us(including me) should think that are we taking things for granted?or spending on things we do not need?anyway just think about it...gtg now...see ya soon...take care friends... =)
Heart-Pounding Moment...
Wednesday, September 19, 2007 2:30 PM
Yoyo...ok let me start with today,nothing thrilling happen except the self-selecting timetable registration...it was heart-pounding man...ok let me tell you what happen woke up at 7.30am like that...was damn tired,almost went back to sleep...so me and pei jiao discuss which class to choose and stuffs at 8am as there was an hour of viewing time...and ht kept asking us what class we choose and stuff...don't know whether to blog this or not...let me think...Mmm...ok better not tell you,or else you'll think I am complete devil...so ok anyway then ht said she couldn't get into the class and stuff so she chose the class which still had vacancy...so she was asking me to delete the choice I submitted and join her...I was relunctant of course,seeing classes end at 3 pm on fridays and stuffs...so she kept asking me to choose that class and in the end I had to log out...I know what you're going to say,I am damn evil right?but to tell you the truth I don't want to spend another semester with you know who...so that's why...I feel really bad now and partially scared as you know the karma thing...anyway but the selecting thing was really damn fast lar,when see the time:8.07am all 6 classes out of 8 classes cannot be chosen already...at first when it was time to choose the timetable I refresh my page and guess what?it logged out for me,I was damn shocked and scared at that time...and as typing in log-in ID and password my hands was trembling man...and I can feel my heartbeat sia,it was pounding hard against my chest...that's shows how nervous I am...haha...it was really scary...haha...but luckily got the first choice I wanted...haha...so that's about all anyway today a bit PMS,got irritated quick quickly and was also damn hot and kept commenting on many people behaviour...I know I am not Mr Perfect but PMS ma,pai sae ar...haha...
Yesterday made some fa gao to eat the gula melaka ones...it was ok as I wasn't really a fan of gula melaka,so now in the process of thinking how to replace the gula melaka so it taste just as good...the first batch I made was damn flat which look like buns...luckily my mum so holders for the kuehs so it held it shapes which was so much better...the pics are below...pardon my habit for constantly cooking during this period...haha...feel like doing mua chee but my microwave spoil so cannot do...if I going to ask mum to buy more ingredients I think I am going get whack...so must see first...haha...really bored so need to something...so now looking for recipes that I can do,considering the ingredients I have...haha...anyway gtg now...see ya...take care everyone...sayonara... =)
1st Batch: Look like buns right?haha...
2nd Batch: More improved...haha... :)
Yesterday made some fa gao to eat the gula melaka ones...it was ok as I wasn't really a fan of gula melaka,so now in the process of thinking how to replace the gula melaka so it taste just as good...the first batch I made was damn flat which look like buns...luckily my mum so holders for the kuehs so it held it shapes which was so much better...the pics are below...pardon my habit for constantly cooking during this period...haha...feel like doing mua chee but my microwave spoil so cannot do...if I going to ask mum to buy more ingredients I think I am going get whack...so must see first...haha...really bored so need to something...so now looking for recipes that I can do,considering the ingredients I have...haha...anyway gtg now...see ya...take care everyone...sayonara... =)
1st Batch: Look like buns right?haha...
2nd Batch: More improved...haha... :)
Greetings...
Tuesday, September 18, 2007 12:56 PM
Done Most of My Errands...
Monday, September 17, 2007 12:59 PM
Hey...yeah!at last bought my earphones,love it loads...wanted to pay for it but mum said she will pay for it...she is the BEST!!!thanks mum...then last night did this desert called 'chocolate pots'...it was edible but wished that didn't follow the recipe and put the the amount stated...cause it was really sweet...it asked for 3/4 cup maybe should be put only half a cup...haiz...so only ate half of it then threw it away...and I think the oven temperature was a little high and the top was slightly burnt,but luckily save it just in time before it was beyond hope...haha...but over all if it wasn't that sweet I would have finish it...haha...and also bought hair dye...thinking of bleaching my hair first then dye,so that the colour will be obvious...previously dyed my hair mummy so no diff...and the first time my sis said my hair like a chestnut like that...haha...so after when my hair grew long,cut and cut...so now it is 90% black..haha...but if I bleach it my hair will be fried and it will be damn dried and spoiled...haha...so need to consider really carefully...feel like baking cookies(ginger snaps) next week...haha...ok I better stop or else later everyone all scared of me...haha...but I guess when you are bored or have nothing to do at home,you just have to find something to do...haha...
O btw,yesterday went to vivo for dinner,but before that went to line up for doughnuts...ok actually,it wasn't really lining up as there were NO people...and yes,you seen right...NO,no people...and to think a few months ago you have to line up for an hour...if I am not wrong,few weeks back 8 DAYS had this article about doughnuts in Singapore and comparing them...and the ones at vivo wasn't that good...I guess it's in every Singaporean's nature to compare on which is better...for example,comparing the whether Mac's burgers or the ones at BK are better...or which clothes are better:HangTen or Giordano?believe me you will surely compare one business with another intentionally or not on purpose...to tell the truth,I have...it's in our blood...haha...I guess the media can really make or break a business...
Anyway,don't even know what to do this coming week...haiz...o I've also decided to remove the music part from my blog cause feel sometimes after a while listen to the same song it's gets irritating so,from now on I will put new songs only for a week or less...and songs are hard to find as imeem have the copyright crap so most of the songs uploaded only plays for 30 seconds...just as I start writing some chinese song then there this coming new competition called "S-POP Hurray" on channel U for song composing...maybe it's my calling or just a coincidence?haha...no lar,it's a coincidence...haha...I don't think I can't even join,as I only got some words down and no music...I can't compose music as I have no musical roots...no music means the lyrics is worthless...with no music,I'm really handicapped to write the further lyrics...it's really hard...and the lyrics is not even compose properly I just think what then pen it down...so it is still step 1 or should I say at step 0 or negative...haiz...and there are still so much more talented people than me out there...'jian zhi bu zhi liang li ma'...last time my parents will force me to go for piano classes but I refuse to go,so now I am regretting I guess the morale of the story is always listen to your parents..haha...gtg now...see ya...take care friends...bye... =)
Top view of the chocolate pot...a bit(or you can say very) burnt though... :(
45 degree shot...haha...
The inside...mmm...but a little too sweet for my tastebuds...haha... :P
My new earphones!!!YEAH!!!
It's neon green in colour...
O btw,yesterday went to vivo for dinner,but before that went to line up for doughnuts...ok actually,it wasn't really lining up as there were NO people...and yes,you seen right...NO,no people...and to think a few months ago you have to line up for an hour...if I am not wrong,few weeks back 8 DAYS had this article about doughnuts in Singapore and comparing them...and the ones at vivo wasn't that good...I guess it's in every Singaporean's nature to compare on which is better...for example,comparing the whether Mac's burgers or the ones at BK are better...or which clothes are better:HangTen or Giordano?believe me you will surely compare one business with another intentionally or not on purpose...to tell the truth,I have...it's in our blood...haha...I guess the media can really make or break a business...
Anyway,don't even know what to do this coming week...haiz...o I've also decided to remove the music part from my blog cause feel sometimes after a while listen to the same song it's gets irritating so,from now on I will put new songs only for a week or less...and songs are hard to find as imeem have the copyright crap so most of the songs uploaded only plays for 30 seconds...just as I start writing some chinese song then there this coming new competition called "S-POP Hurray" on channel U for song composing...maybe it's my calling or just a coincidence?haha...no lar,it's a coincidence...haha...I don't think I can't even join,as I only got some words down and no music...I can't compose music as I have no musical roots...no music means the lyrics is worthless...with no music,I'm really handicapped to write the further lyrics...it's really hard...and the lyrics is not even compose properly I just think what then pen it down...so it is still step 1 or should I say at step 0 or negative...haiz...and there are still so much more talented people than me out there...'jian zhi bu zhi liang li ma'...last time my parents will force me to go for piano classes but I refuse to go,so now I am regretting I guess the morale of the story is always listen to your parents..haha...gtg now...see ya...take care friends...bye... =)
Top view of the chocolate pot...a bit(or you can say very) burnt though... :(
45 degree shot...haha...
The inside...mmm...but a little too sweet for my tastebuds...haha... :P
My new earphones!!!YEAH!!!
It's neon green in colour...
Results Day...
Saturday, September 15, 2007 12:53 PM
Hey everyone...today the results are out!!!thought the viewing of results was after 9am..but got the sms at 8.30am but didn't read it until 11.30am like that cause was sleeping...haha...the results are ok but not all that of a celebration...but some modules a bit disappointing leh...first is the both IS modules got a B..wth,not even a B+???haha...haiz..but given my group got a B is happy enough already right?haha...then moving on bgmt got C+...feel quite neutral leh...actually want at least a B...but I guess I can leave with it...considering I hate and suck at that module...I guess I must not be greedy be happy that I can even pass...and the rest is ok but infa...I a bit disappointed but seeing that I screwed up at the beginning,its reasonable to have that kind of results...haha...on tuesday will be the self-selecting timetable session which makes me a bit nervous man...have to click very fast in order to be enrol into the class...IS mudules are already selected already and mine end at 4pm...damn it...so late I was hoping to end at 1 or something then can go back rest...but something that confused me is the email send saying have to log in 2 times to enrol for the modules and the IS ones...haiz...so 'ma fan'...anyway,after knowing some people results I found that I suck!!!haha...anyway I think that's about my first poly results...haha...craving for korean food these past few days...haha...gtg now...see ya...take care folks... =)
First Time Felt the Tremors...
Thursday, September 13, 2007 11:42 AM
Hello...can't think of anything to blog now...haha...Mmmmm...ok know what to blog liao...just now when watching tv then suddenly felt like how come my whole world is like swaying left to right like that...so ask mum whether is the building shaking or something...she was like where got,I somemore showed her the hanging lantern was also swaying...she said it was the wind,after that she also felt it then asked my sis whether got feel anything or not...then my sis say got...told her la...everytime don't believe me...there was this once my room light is flickering very slight and I said is the light something wrong and before that we were talking about some spooky stuffs...then she tell me don't anyhow talk and guess what?after a couple of minutes the light bulb blown...hai ya why always don't believe me one...I guess this is the time when I can say "I told you so..."I guess I was a little piss off when she was denying what I was saying,I think it is the point that people think you are lying which makes you blow your top...right?haha...anyway then saw channel newsasia then they say people evacuate buildings and stuffs...I mean come on,is there really a need to evacuate the building...it just a tremor,it not gonna kill you unlike the ones in Japan,America or Indonesia...and its not like you put objects at the edge of the table or shelf and it is going to fall off...or a ten-ton iron bar is going to fall on you and cause instant death...and the news reporter says that within minutes calls were coming in and stuffs...don't need be so 'kua zhang' ba...haiz...Singaporeans(I'm a Singaporean too,its like slapping myself in the face...haha)...*shakes head*
This morning is had a really cool dream...about this mission of 3 guys and a gal(including me)...who have to get out of the building which being caught by the evil agents...and just when we were out and put our hands together,I woke up...I know its childish but when it feels so real...it doesn't feel childish anymore...haha...Feel like going on a holiday sia but on the other hand also don't feel like...one thing is life is too boring,need to get out but no $$$ since last year's taiwan trip...sad...also saving for my new armchair for my room so also a bit of restricted...haiz...o btw Friday the results of the exams coming out...a bit excited,tons nervous...wish me luck...gtg now...see ya...bye... =)
This morning is had a really cool dream...about this mission of 3 guys and a gal(including me)...who have to get out of the building which being caught by the evil agents...and just when we were out and put our hands together,I woke up...I know its childish but when it feels so real...it doesn't feel childish anymore...haha...Feel like going on a holiday sia but on the other hand also don't feel like...one thing is life is too boring,need to get out but no $$$ since last year's taiwan trip...sad...also saving for my new armchair for my room so also a bit of restricted...haiz...o btw Friday the results of the exams coming out...a bit excited,tons nervous...wish me luck...gtg now...see ya...bye... =)
I am changing?
Wednesday, September 12, 2007 12:14 PM
Ok...that will do...haha...anyway hi everyone...today gonna be a short...I have a question:I am growing old?ok before you all start laughing your heads off,hear me out...I don't what is happening now...I mean that now I seem to eat lesser,in the past I usually need to eat at least 2 meals plus to be full...but now one meal plus seems to be sufficient...maybe its because I don't exercise much nowadays so don't need so much fuels...haha...and now,I don't really like eating chilli such as in noodles and stuffs,but only eat certain types of chilli...in the past I just LOVE chilli no matter in what dish...I guess as you grow older you get more picky(or maybe not???)...really get old or what man?taste changing,eating lesser,etc.what's next losing my memory?anyway I guess that life right?yesterday read this buddhist book called "preparing for death and helping the dying" my aunt lend me...it ok not that bad,luckily its a thin book or else I'll take forever to read it...haha...I have this bad habit when reading,when reading the passage my mind will be off wandering,and after finishing I notice I don't even know what's the passage about...the strange thing is that I read every word in the passage...weird huh?anyway today have nothing so tried the tarot reading on myself to practice...tried a new way with only 3 cards representing the past,present and the future...but the usual one is suppose to have 10 cards...haha...but surprisingly it is ok...haha...ok anyway gtg now...see ya...take care now...bye... =)
The Knight of Cups which represent my present state...
A Not-Bad Weekend...
Tuesday, September 11, 2007 5:50 AM
Hi everyone...back to blog cause since friday never blog liao...later get scolded...haha...anyway lets start on saturday...since I stopped on friday...ok didn't happen much in the morning and afternoon cause stayed at home cause no where to go...haha...but think this weekend go many things to do liao...haha...in the night,went to circular road to eat nasi padang...it was superb...but the ingredients a bit not flavour or not very fresh I guess it's because the flavour was all in the gravy already...anyway it was still good...haha...but there is a lot of pubs there I can say...as it was still early went to suntec's carefour...it was not so crowded so not too bad...haha...but I bought very little things...I was damn frustrated with mum cause she took 10 minutes at the cheese and butter section which I almost died...haha...then went to bakery,fruits and vegetables section,etc...then went to the cashier...thinking the queue was something wrong as it was short,later finding out it was the credit card payment lane...so it explains it efficiency...haha...anyway then went back I guess after that went home and didn't do much liao...haha...
Ok moving onto yesterday...as usual nothing much happen in the morning and afternoon...but in the evening was preparing to go to my 1st uncle birthday dinner...it was at M Hotel...met my cousin's bf there...he is quite a nice person when he shake my hand I don't what to say and mumble some things...which now looking back makes me so ma loo...anyway actually I quite like the hotel...because of the FOOD!!!as for starters and deserts it like a buffet but before that you have to order your main course then as you are eating your starters then they will cook it...I order baked salmon but there was others such as lamb shank,tenderloin and others...haha...anyway I was wondering why would they ask you how would like the lamb done...I mean if you didn't cook it well then it will have that smell...and worst,if it is rare there is blood oozing out when you cut it like steak like that...weird huh?haha...anyway then for starters there were sushi,sashimi,shellfish,fried dumpling,onion rings,salads and finger foods...haha...they have mini lobster which I took one and let me tell you its damn hard to peel man the shell is so hard that my fingers was damn pain...lesson learned?use a knife to peel a lobster...haha...then the main course came,there was mushroom mashed potatoes,vegetable that was really slimy and some sauce...which is really SOME,if you get what I mean...haha...after eating when I glance down the table those whose ordered salmon,the vegetable was all left at side except mine...haha... it was damn funny...haha...and it came to the deserts,there was fruits,tarts,chocolate fountain,kuehs and cakes...ate a lot which I was damn full...
Then later took some pics and then sat down to chat for a while...we were chatting about things we done when we were a child together...haha...such as starting a bbq with a box of matches,twigs and leaves,falling down at this really steep slope,spending 4 hours at a playground and returning only at dinner time to stealing fishes...opps I shouldn't say that here...or else I will get caught...haha...but that is just the tip of the iceberg...I guess my childhood was a fun filled one,I don't regret any bit of it...be it a pain or a joyful one,I don't mind reliving it again or just to see the images once again maybe a dream...haha...but I guess I will see it once again before I die ba...haha...I guess these days kids can't have some of these experience as there are some much toys and computer games right?haha...I say until like that as if I damn old like that...haha...but as we get older everyone have their own things to do and so we start to not meet each other at grandma's house already...anyway after the dinner we went home...took a shower,watched some tv and then sleep...
Today is the last day of the 7th lunar month already...yeah...then can do things during this month not allowed to do liao...haha...later in the evening,have to go to the temple to pray my ancestors...will upload photos later when I receive them...haha...gtg now...see ya...take care... =)
Ok moving onto yesterday...as usual nothing much happen in the morning and afternoon...but in the evening was preparing to go to my 1st uncle birthday dinner...it was at M Hotel...met my cousin's bf there...he is quite a nice person when he shake my hand I don't what to say and mumble some things...which now looking back makes me so ma loo...anyway actually I quite like the hotel...because of the FOOD!!!as for starters and deserts it like a buffet but before that you have to order your main course then as you are eating your starters then they will cook it...I order baked salmon but there was others such as lamb shank,tenderloin and others...haha...anyway I was wondering why would they ask you how would like the lamb done...I mean if you didn't cook it well then it will have that smell...and worst,if it is rare there is blood oozing out when you cut it like steak like that...weird huh?haha...anyway then for starters there were sushi,sashimi,shellfish,fried dumpling,onion rings,salads and finger foods...haha...they have mini lobster which I took one and let me tell you its damn hard to peel man the shell is so hard that my fingers was damn pain...lesson learned?use a knife to peel a lobster...haha...then the main course came,there was mushroom mashed potatoes,vegetable that was really slimy and some sauce...which is really SOME,if you get what I mean...haha...after eating when I glance down the table those whose ordered salmon,the vegetable was all left at side except mine...haha... it was damn funny...haha...and it came to the deserts,there was fruits,tarts,chocolate fountain,kuehs and cakes...ate a lot which I was damn full...
Then later took some pics and then sat down to chat for a while...we were chatting about things we done when we were a child together...haha...such as starting a bbq with a box of matches,twigs and leaves,falling down at this really steep slope,spending 4 hours at a playground and returning only at dinner time to stealing fishes...opps I shouldn't say that here...or else I will get caught...haha...but that is just the tip of the iceberg...I guess my childhood was a fun filled one,I don't regret any bit of it...be it a pain or a joyful one,I don't mind reliving it again or just to see the images once again maybe a dream...haha...but I guess I will see it once again before I die ba...haha...I guess these days kids can't have some of these experience as there are some much toys and computer games right?haha...I say until like that as if I damn old like that...haha...but as we get older everyone have their own things to do and so we start to not meet each other at grandma's house already...anyway after the dinner we went home...took a shower,watched some tv and then sleep...
Today is the last day of the 7th lunar month already...yeah...then can do things during this month not allowed to do liao...haha...later in the evening,have to go to the temple to pray my ancestors...will upload photos later when I receive them...haha...gtg now...see ya...take care... =)
Not really a wink last night...
Saturday, September 08, 2007 6:28 AM
Hello..back to blog...haha...first of all wanna say I think I am going to be cranky today man...hardly slept last night...slept at 1am then was damn hot then woke up at 2...and after that couldn't go back to sleep...it sucks man and now it feels like I have been hit by a truck man...ok maybe not hit by a truck but it feels like you want to die but cannot..haha...don't want to sleep now or else tonight cannot sleep liao and the WHOLE cycle of 'cannot sleep' wil begin again...anyway then went online,haiza go ask me go and sleep, but still can't...haha...anywhere then got nothing to do so just watch tv,listen music,surf the net and just laze on the bed...yesterday watched "just shoot 3" and they were talking about death...I just really want to ask everyone are you really scared of DEATH?and what how do you picture the afterlife?just think about it...o btw my first aunt just came back from India this morning..haha...today is great day to go Sentosa cause its really sunny and not much clouds...actually last night got a lot things to blog one but now like forget liao...haha...maybe I remember then I blog it again...haha...this morning actually want to scare mum one cause I wake up really early so it was quite dark so I wanted to just sit on my bed and look straight so as if possessed like that...haha...or like got 'something' on my bed but was distracted then she saw me then cannot already...shit man...haha...but if I did it she will lecture on doing it and it the 7th month and stuff...haha...she always scold me say I walk no sound...really meh?I walk no sound?yesterday receive an email fro np taekwondo club...they take so long to reply man,I posted the enquire email the first week which is months ago...if they never reply I would have forgotten but now they reply make me more angry man...so log then reply...haha...ok forget it,its so long I shouldn't be so petty right?haha...ok I wouldn't then...haha...last night if you the notice the sky,it was really nice...the dark sky was decorated with white clouds,then coming to the wee hours the clouds turned orange...damn nice maybe tonight should have ba...now it's really windy don't know why man,then last night not even a breeze...haha...anyway gtg now...ciao...take care guys... =)
Time for a change...
Thursday, September 06, 2007 7:21 AM
Hey...my status now is: rotting in process..haha...I just realise like a lot people all working like that...maybe I shouldn't have quit deli,then wouldn't be so bored now and somemore can earn some $$$...haha...but deli like not really good o work and the pay is peanuts,so what for right?but if work new place then have to go new environment and establish relations with people all over again...I know as you can guess it,I'm not a fan of changes...and I guess that is my weakness...haha...really bored...as usual woke up really late about 1 plus like that...you know why?since the exams,my sleeping habits have been disrupted...so now people who are sleeping,I am awake...and when I am sleeping everyone is awake...haha...ok today damn hot sia...I want to die liao...haha...I realise these 3 days is over really fast...I woke up about 12 plus then 12-1 like that go back to sleep...maybe its beccause I am hardly awake for 12 hours so that why I feel it is fast ba...haha...I starting to think I am a pig man,sleep so much...haha...anyway yesterday don't know what I press then suddenly stumble over this really cute blog skin so I don't whether to change or not...cause give up this blogskin a bit 'she bu de'...cause once I saw this then I love it at once...you can say it's love at first sight...haha...but the next one I going to change a bit gay leh...but nvm lar...who cares already...this blogskin quite long liao so better change ba...and I guess must keep changing right?haha...going to miss this blogskin cause it protrays my character very dark,quiet,emo,likes to be kept alone,longing for this special something...haha...and I love it so much...but its funny,the skin is a little funny,to an extend that you can't take me seriously...haha...anyway going to change it...haha...today suppose to meet eunice to exchange books but she say she forget to bring out cause she in a rush...haha...I was also a little lazy to meet her...so luckily she didn't bring out...opps...but if she got bring out I will surely meet her one...haha...haha...ok gtg now...see ya...take care folks... =)
O btw here a poem taken for Choices magazine few months ago,found it when clearing my old files...it's really sad,it is actually to encourage people to walk away from abusive spouse but actually it taught me to have the courage to do things that are right even though,not many people are doing it...read it...it really meaningful...
Title: I Got Flowers Today
I got flowers today!
It wasn't my birthday or any special day.
We had our first argument last night;
And he said a lot of cruel things that really hurt;
I know that he is sorry and didn’t mean to the things he said;
Because he sent me flowers today.
I got flowers today!
It wasn't our anniversary or any other special day.
Last night, he threw me into the wall and started to choke me.
It seemed like a nightmare.
I couldn't believe that it was real.
I woke up this morning sore and bruised all over.
I know he must be sorry.
Because he sent me flowers today.
I got flowers today!
And it wasn't Valentines Day or any special day;
Last night he beat me and threatened to kill me;
Make-up and long sleeves didn't hide the cuts and bruises this time;
I couldn't go to work today because I didn't want anyone to know – but I know he's sorry;
Because he sent me flowers today.
I got flowers today!
And it wasn't Mother's Day or any special day;
Last night he beat me again, and it was worse than all of the other times;
If I leave him, what will I do? How will I take care of the kids?
What about money?
I'm afraid of him, but I'm too scared and dependent to leave him!
But he must be sorry;
Because he sent me flowers today.
I got flowers today!
Today was a special day – it was the day of my funeral;
Last night he killed me;
If only I would gathered the courage and strength to leave him;
I could have received help from the Women's Shelter, but I didn’t ask for their help;
So I got flowers today – for the last time.
-Paulette Kelly, 1992-
O btw here a poem taken for Choices magazine few months ago,found it when clearing my old files...it's really sad,it is actually to encourage people to walk away from abusive spouse but actually it taught me to have the courage to do things that are right even though,not many people are doing it...read it...it really meaningful...
Title: I Got Flowers Today
I got flowers today!
It wasn't my birthday or any special day.
We had our first argument last night;
And he said a lot of cruel things that really hurt;
I know that he is sorry and didn’t mean to the things he said;
Because he sent me flowers today.
I got flowers today!
It wasn't our anniversary or any other special day.
Last night, he threw me into the wall and started to choke me.
It seemed like a nightmare.
I couldn't believe that it was real.
I woke up this morning sore and bruised all over.
I know he must be sorry.
Because he sent me flowers today.
I got flowers today!
And it wasn't Valentines Day or any special day;
Last night he beat me and threatened to kill me;
Make-up and long sleeves didn't hide the cuts and bruises this time;
I couldn't go to work today because I didn't want anyone to know – but I know he's sorry;
Because he sent me flowers today.
I got flowers today!
And it wasn't Mother's Day or any special day;
Last night he beat me again, and it was worse than all of the other times;
If I leave him, what will I do? How will I take care of the kids?
What about money?
I'm afraid of him, but I'm too scared and dependent to leave him!
But he must be sorry;
Because he sent me flowers today.
I got flowers today!
Today was a special day – it was the day of my funeral;
Last night he killed me;
If only I would gathered the courage and strength to leave him;
I could have received help from the Women's Shelter, but I didn’t ask for their help;
So I got flowers today – for the last time.
-Paulette Kelly, 1992-
Status of one of my holiday plans: Fulfilled!
Monday, September 03, 2007 11:04 AM
Hey...back to blog...I think this is going to be short one cause as expected,I didn't sleep last night till 6 plus in the morning and woke up at 12...and somemore just had a bit of red wine and it's kicking in...haha...so a bit tired...haha...today one of my holiday plan is to accomplish...haha...one down,many more to go...it was to make a dish for dinner...called coq au vin,its a french dish means chicken in wine(I think)..haha...it was ok but still a little salty should had added more water but no enough time...haha...let's see what should I do for tommorrow ...damn bored now and surely for the up coming week...talked to pei jiao today she introduced me a tawainese drama cause ask her recommend me some,as I am really bored...can't wait to watch it...haha...when she say got 7 weeks of holidays it suddenly remind me that time is really flying fast,surely soon the school will re-open...yawn...haha...its been 3 weeks of the 7th month liao..been really fast...pei jiao say she also rotting...haha...hi 5,girl!haha...many people asked me whether I got go find job or not but I think holidays are for enjoying and not work...so didn't and also a bit lazy...haha...and whatsmore it is hard to find as not many people want a staff for 2 months,right?haha..so better not waste energy and time...haha...anyway I think that's about all...going to bathe,read some books and sleep...haha..see ya...bye... =)
Start:
Ta ta...presenting the coq au vin I made...haha...
End:
*buuurrpp*...ate finish liao...haha...
My all-time favourite song by my favourite singer and idol(Zhang Dong Liang)...wished he acted in more shows to watched so won't be that bored...very touching,sad and emo...bored again,so that why took this photo after watching the show on youtube...and ya you guess it,the drama is called "Wei Xiao Pasta"haha...the name of the song is called really nice sounding to right?haha...
Start:
Ta ta...presenting the coq au vin I made...haha...
End:
*buuurrpp*...ate finish liao...haha...
My all-time favourite song by my favourite singer and idol(Zhang Dong Liang)...wished he acted in more shows to watched so won't be that bored...very touching,sad and emo...bored again,so that why took this photo after watching the show on youtube...and ya you guess it,the drama is called "Wei Xiao Pasta"haha...the name of the song is called
Nothing to do...
Sunday, September 02, 2007 1:55 PM
Hi...today didn't do much...cause only went out for dinner...just found out many people indeed went back to school...haha...fell a bit 'yi han' never go...but guess don't cry over spilled milk right?haha...today stayed at home and watched "most haunted" and this show about investigating ghosts in an haunted house on youtube...damn eerie,creepy and freaky...guess tonight not going to sleep liao...haiz...so gonna watched tv until morning I guess...haha...just now went to grandma's house to visit her and that very moment I feel very heart-wrenched,as I feel she really aged...there are a few times that I dream of her passing and in the dream it feel really real,I indeed feel deep sadness...I guess life is really a box of chocolate,it is unpredictable...haiz...o btw yesterday(or should I say this morning)watch finish "Wei Xiao Pasta"...damn nice...haha...maybe I buying the dvd..haha...but must see how first...got $$$ first or not...haha...it then I guess you are going call me mad..haha...true,sometimes I don't watch it too many times it's because don't want to go through the emotional roller coaster ride of the show...haha...the ending a bit diappointing cause he qun didn't have the contract or didn't show he had the contract...if he got the contact then it will be perfect..haha...but on the other hand if they show him having the contract then he will have no time to pei the chen xiao shi and may break up...but if he have the contract then there will be many possibilities,such as they may still love each other as much...haha...maybe they can't show him too successful or else,he will be a global star and everyone will know him...and then people might think he is a real character but there are such people right?anyway these shows are 90% not true,right?haha...I guess you now must be scratching your head,right...haha...so sorry,moving on...
Yesterday was talking to pei jie(pj) about life...was discussing about love,stress and school..sometimes I do really ask myself,is there such thing as true love?do dreams really come true?and how would dead feel?I gues you may be asking wth am i not doing thinking of these...it is because I couldn't sleep last night as slept too much in the afternoon so it was a time to think about things,talk to god and just reflect on life...the other day asked my mum what would happen when you die,and she said that you will dream about your childhood and then you will see your late relatives coming to take you away...I guess if I have a choice I think I would choose a dead who not hurt and suffering...but on the other hand who wouldn't right?haha...at times living is just like a dream,and when you die you just wake up from that long dream and your soul leaves your body and returns to where it belongs...the I can't believe this I am revealing this,but don't laugh ar...I actually told pj that if one day we both passed away must put close together so the afterlife we have company...neighbour neighbour...haha...but who know what will happen in the future right?haiz...actually I missed her so long never talk liao since that day that failed sentosa trip...haiz...anyway,hope to see her soon...haha...o my first aunt and uncle is now in india visiting the Dalai Lama..so envy them wished I could go...but maybe I may not used to the environment ther even though it is only for a week...haha...anyway gtg now...see ya...take care everyone... =)
Yesterday was talking to pei jie(pj) about life...was discussing about love,stress and school..sometimes I do really ask myself,is there such thing as true love?do dreams really come true?and how would dead feel?I gues you may be asking wth am i not doing thinking of these...it is because I couldn't sleep last night as slept too much in the afternoon so it was a time to think about things,talk to god and just reflect on life...the other day asked my mum what would happen when you die,and she said that you will dream about your childhood and then you will see your late relatives coming to take you away...I guess if I have a choice I think I would choose a dead who not hurt and suffering...but on the other hand who wouldn't right?haha...at times living is just like a dream,and when you die you just wake up from that long dream and your soul leaves your body and returns to where it belongs...the I can't believe this I am revealing this,but don't laugh ar...I actually told pj that if one day we both passed away must put close together so the afterlife we have company...neighbour neighbour...haha...but who know what will happen in the future right?haiz...actually I missed her so long never talk liao since that day that failed sentosa trip...haiz...anyway,hope to see her soon...haha...o my first aunt and uncle is now in india visiting the Dalai Lama..so envy them wished I could go...but maybe I may not used to the environment ther even though it is only for a week...haha...anyway gtg now...see ya...take care everyone... =)
Went back to past?
Saturday, September 01, 2007 11:16 AM
Hello everyone...today teachers' day eve which,means its teachers' day celebration and the yearly aces day workout which I always dread...haha...I guess you will ask me whether I went back to my secondary school?but I didn't...I guess I would like to spare the trouble of getting in,cause the security guards are just assholes...ok let me you what happen,early this year got this group or one boy who who was an ex-student came back and create lots of trouble and from then on we are not allowed to enter in the premises to visit teachers or what so ever...how I know?cause that time go back to take O level cert then they say only can take the cert and leave immediately...but me and eunice did something really bad,we walked around the school for a while go staff room then go D&T room...haha...but we didn't 'wei fei zhuo dai"...haha...but I also a bit lazy lar...
As last night went to the 7th month auction dinner...the food was no bad...first had the cold dish,followed by soup,steamed herbal chicken,suckling pig,sea cucumber and mushrooms,steamed fish,rice wrapped in lotus leaf and for desert was longans and almond jelly(my favourite)...haha...but anyway in the past the number of tables seems to be like twice the amount now...but my mum says cause many companies have moved out from the buildings so lesser people and tables...and the items on stage for auctions also have been greatly reduced...towards the end I wanted to sleep man...was getting boring...my grandfather bid for an 50kg bag of rice and got it...haha...at first it seems hilarious but if I am not wrong it is things got from auctions from these are suppose to be auspicious..haha...and last time there would be a getai and many people will be watching but now it is only a chinese opera which no one watches and no chairs there too...but mum says the 'things' are watching...but who am I to argue right?haha...then uncle simon bought at least 5 packs of big sweeps at $100 plus dollars...haha...I found something really weird cause out of all the servers which all all females,there is only one guy who looks damn skinny and can be blown away by the wind(ok maybe I shouldn't be so bad)which is maybe about 20 years old...weird huh?anyway our tables was one of the nearest to the kitchen so our food was hot,fresh(I supposed) and we are first few to get it...haha...then everything ended at about 11pm exactly...it was draggy so some people started to leave and the quickly serve the desert and the last was a gigantic 'fa gao'...as I love to eat it and been asking mum to buy the past few days but she didn't,so I jokingly asked her to bid for it but as I expected she didn't..haha...if I am not wrong as they were rushing to end the auction so I think it the last few items were sold quite cheap and the last 'fa gao' was sold also quite cheap compared to the early ones in the auction...haha...O,then there was this wooden rice bucket which was decorated really nice and sold for $3000 plus but the auntie beside my mum said this kind of rice bucket can fetch a value of $5000 plus as it represent abundance...haha...as the bidding was slowing down,this man came up to sing a hokkien song...which I laughed my head of and my sis said 'this is what happens after a few drinks..."haha...next was the 'black gold' which is actually charcoal which decorated nicely,it represent wealth was sold for don't know how much...my mum said in the past in the kampong,it is made much larger and can easily fetch a astonding $10000...can you believe it?!then after everything,we went back...and chat to auntie jessie for a while,she was hilarious as before...in the car I couldn't stop laughing to myself and my sis thought I was mad...haha...anyway that about ends my day yesterday...
For today,didn't do much...just stayed at home and watched "Wei Xiao Pasta" and tv too...actually in the past,always thought going back to school as senior would be great but I start to feel likewise...or maybe I didn't go back that's why I have not felt it yet...maybe next year ba...O today's also malaysia's national day too...haha...anyway gtg now...see ya...take care... =)
Something to say before I go...
Happy Teachers’ Day to Teachers,Lecturers and Tutors!!!
As last night went to the 7th month auction dinner...the food was no bad...first had the cold dish,followed by soup,steamed herbal chicken,suckling pig,sea cucumber and mushrooms,steamed fish,rice wrapped in lotus leaf and for desert was longans and almond jelly(my favourite)...haha...but anyway in the past the number of tables seems to be like twice the amount now...but my mum says cause many companies have moved out from the buildings so lesser people and tables...and the items on stage for auctions also have been greatly reduced...towards the end I wanted to sleep man...was getting boring...my grandfather bid for an 50kg bag of rice and got it...haha...at first it seems hilarious but if I am not wrong it is things got from auctions from these are suppose to be auspicious..haha...and last time there would be a getai and many people will be watching but now it is only a chinese opera which no one watches and no chairs there too...but mum says the 'things' are watching...but who am I to argue right?haha...then uncle simon bought at least 5 packs of big sweeps at $100 plus dollars...haha...I found something really weird cause out of all the servers which all all females,there is only one guy who looks damn skinny and can be blown away by the wind(ok maybe I shouldn't be so bad)which is maybe about 20 years old...weird huh?anyway our tables was one of the nearest to the kitchen so our food was hot,fresh(I supposed) and we are first few to get it...haha...then everything ended at about 11pm exactly...it was draggy so some people started to leave and the quickly serve the desert and the last was a gigantic 'fa gao'...as I love to eat it and been asking mum to buy the past few days but she didn't,so I jokingly asked her to bid for it but as I expected she didn't..haha...if I am not wrong as they were rushing to end the auction so I think it the last few items were sold quite cheap and the last 'fa gao' was sold also quite cheap compared to the early ones in the auction...haha...O,then there was this wooden rice bucket which was decorated really nice and sold for $3000 plus but the auntie beside my mum said this kind of rice bucket can fetch a value of $5000 plus as it represent abundance...haha...as the bidding was slowing down,this man came up to sing a hokkien song...which I laughed my head of and my sis said 'this is what happens after a few drinks..."haha...next was the 'black gold' which is actually charcoal which decorated nicely,it represent wealth was sold for don't know how much...my mum said in the past in the kampong,it is made much larger and can easily fetch a astonding $10000...can you believe it?!then after everything,we went back...and chat to auntie jessie for a while,she was hilarious as before...in the car I couldn't stop laughing to myself and my sis thought I was mad...haha...anyway that about ends my day yesterday...
For today,didn't do much...just stayed at home and watched "Wei Xiao Pasta" and tv too...actually in the past,always thought going back to school as senior would be great but I start to feel likewise...or maybe I didn't go back that's why I have not felt it yet...maybe next year ba...O today's also malaysia's national day too...haha...anyway gtg now...see ya...take care... =)
Something to say before I go...
Happy Teachers’ Day to Teachers,Lecturers and Tutors!!!